Thus far...

So I havn't blogged in a really long time. In fact I hardly on the computer at home. Somehow I get home late enough to be tired enough not to want to on the computer. I been in BKK too.

Spent 4 days there, the usual work walk around home thing. Nothing much about the city attracts me anymore, except the cheap earrings,8 for 100baht, and the great southern thai curry. I had major cravings for it the few days I came back. I even popped a thai chilli padi into my mouth just for the kick of it. It wasn't too hot at first, but once you drink water, oohooo the hotness spreads. Its more of the peppery kinda hot than chilli hot. I was uncontrollablely tearing and sniffing. And mind you, I do think my chilli standard is quite high. I eat a whole lot of chilli compared to people around me and I hardly find anything the least bit hot. But that chilli padi, shoik!

I will be goign to MOS tomorrow. Lets all hope I can stand the smoke. The last time i was at the entrance, I felt so repelled. I hate smoke. I hate smokers. Anyway, its ladies night and I am dying to take a look at its interior. Better do so now before the couches and everything get all dirty grimy stained with alcohol spills and vomit.

Another update, I am no longer going to Manila next week. Turns our that my colleague manged to get his reservist deferred and I am staying put in sunny sg.

Budget report

I looked at the Budget release today and I am only eligible for $400 dollars, or is it $200. Depending on the AV of my hse, which I have no idea the amt. I guess it would fall in the $400 range. Yes, so its $400 out of dunno how many billions.

They say that help goes to the people who needs it most. Agreed, but somehow it seems to target old people, or those earning less than $1500 a mth. Most people I know earn more than that. Since we are on the topic of average income, let me digress a little, my boss thinks that the average income of sg is 1800 a person. I almost fainted when I heard that. I thought I rememberd reading the papers that it was 2500, because I distinctinly remembered the argh in my heart when I read that. Woe betides me if my boss thinks he is overpaying us.

I can understand why most of my peers are not interested in anything the gahmen does. Because, it doesnt have an effect on us directly. I read through the whole budget report and was a little dissapointed. Ya, we earn a decent amt, enough to not starve but yet so many of us feel its so hard and things oh so expensive.

Another thing I do not like is the propaganda. The papers feature stories of people who are so happy and that the budget report is all but a good thing. I dun see any reports of people lamenting. The one that pissed me off most - the one liner on the single unmarried girl that went "oh i am so glad i am getting $600, its the biggest amt the govt has given. This shows that single unmarried girls are not neglected"

Duh, in fact, I feel that most single unmarried girls are neglected.

Don't get me wrong. I still love my country and am glad the pap keeps the country lawful - although they allowed the murderer of the Serangnoon mureder to leave the country even after an island-wide net was cast almost immediately.

I have my views on that matter. I think the police are efficent, as in efficent to following the handbook cos handbook says that in such situtation, cast an island wide net. So, the net is cast, but the actual people doing the job have no idea what to do. They lack the experience of spotting a murderer, that glint in the eye or the sweaty palms etc. They are simply following protocol. Whatever. I fear to imagine how things will be liek if the terrorist attack. Touch wood.

Back to topic.
I am glad that the gahmen is helping the needy, but people like me - the whole thing is like a big hoo haa. I wished more could have been done.

Mid of Feb, almost

Twelve days since the last entry. Well it didnt seem that long. I wonder why all the time has went.

I have nothing much to blog about really,except how jaded things are.
I be going to BKK soon. Very much a work trip with not much time for shopping because boss is going. I dun realy care too, BKK has lost its attraction for me. I guess after you go there 3 times in a yr, its just about the same. I love my SG.

I did place a bet for the 10mil draw toto. Infact, the outlet that I bought from produced a winner. It had done so a few years before too. Well, I striked one number on each ticket. Two ticket, mine and Alboy. If I did win 10mil, I would be out of the country by now. Touring around the world. I guess I will prob just pack 2 sets of clothes and be off. I will buy everything at each destination. Since I won nothing, it would be back to work on monday.

It was the first time I placed a bet. It was mildly exhilirating and addictive. I think the next time round, if I were waiting for somone or killing time and there is a outlet ard, I might just go in to place a bet. Its called buying a hope. The draw of a windfall is really great.

Oh, Vday's coming. I still do not understand the fuss attached to it. I betted with my colleague that Alboy will not remember its Vday because of his busy schedule and I on my part will not mention a single word to him. What I like about Vday is seeing people prepare for it, joining in the fuss as I ooo and aaa bout their plans. Its more of a conversational topic for me. When it comes to myself, its like eerrr ok.

1.41am and my mum is not asleep yet. I am waiting for her to conk so that I can snuggle up to Alboy.

In a turn of an eye (directly translated)

So cny came and gone, at least the holidays. But then again, cny is as impt as the holidays eh..no?

Back to boring work week. No hoildays till Good Friday which is in April? Thats 2 whole good months. Waaaa. Someone told me that Vday is coming but that seriously means nothing to do. No phol, so means nothing eh.

I was noting that today is the end of January and somehow I wished the yr will go by faster. I just want it to go by fast. I have no idea why too. I guess I still miss the Xmassy mood + the cool weather.

I had intially planned to go to town on Friday but my uncle switched his house visiting day last minute. Now I have to go to his house for dinner instead. It the uncle whose wife cannot cook for nuts.

I have two more weeks of cny dinners to eat before the whole cny thingy ends. I guess its good, time away from Alboy. We are talking now but I think I have OD-ed on the whole thing.

My mum had asked him to come to our place this Sat because it is our turn to host the dinner. I told him not to come, but it seems like he will. I cannot stand all my noisy relatives questioning him and me. Just keep him away, its not as if he will become part of the family anytime soon. Dud. I hope he doesnt come. I told him that if he comes, he will have to help clean up after the guests leave. That means vacuum mop scrub, you know the drill.

I had fun with my cousin's kids. They were 6 and 2. I kinda envied them. I wished I were their age. They seemed so happy, running around, full of energy, no worries, laughing. I cannot seem to remember a time when I was like this.

Now, I hestitate abt running ard because it wil make me pespire.
I do not laugh that much or easily find mirth.
I seems to be tired all the time, not much energy.

When I watch them sleep, its so peaceful. Now when I sleep, I grouch about having to wake up early and grouch again when I wake up. Life as a child. You smile play laugh go back to sleep.

I remembered the times when I looked forward to cny, because I could play with my cousins. They seemed so far away, but looking at the little kids today helped me relive some of those memories. Some, most memories have faded away.

.....

So, I went shopping today and bought shoes, top, bags and undies. Not bad.

The best part was, I did it with my girlfriends. Thanks gals!

I had a tiff with Alboy, I guess most would know the details. Its too lengthy to word it here.
Anyway, the main pt is I did not speak to him today. Did not call him. He did not call me either. I think this is the longest I went without speaking to him. Even when I am overseas, we still call each other.

The thing is, I had totally no urge to talk to him. I really didn't feel like talking to him.
Usually, even when we disagree, I still give in and call him after a few hours. Now, it didn't even bother me.

He finally called me near midnight and I wasn't even excited to hear the phone ring. My tone of voice was so deadpan I couldn't even believe it myself.

Anyway, we are still not talking because I couldn't get him to see from my pt of view. Either I couldn't get him to, or he sticks to his viewpt, or its me sticking to my viewpt. I think its a combination. Yet, I am not asking him to ahere to my view, I am just asking him listen to what I have to say and he keeps rebutting me. So, I told him rather curtly that I do not want to talk to him any more and hung up the phone adruptly.

I doubt he will call. He's prob too tired and will fall asleep immediately. Whatever, you know what I do not really care. In fact, he has been so tired for such a long time I suspect it is eating into me.

Or perhaps, 3 and a half years is too long a time. Yes, 3 and a half years to the exact date itself.

Cny soon.....

Sunday night, Monday technically.

Yet another work week ah. I know no one likes hearing me complain abt the work week but yet i think I am entitled to. 5 days. Boss will be back on Wed. The week passes really fast actually. You just have to know how to skive. Nowadays I am quite good at spending 2 hours staring at my screen doing no work, but appearing like I am hard at work. Its a waste of time really. With the combined job scope, I really have no idea wtf I am supposed to do.

5 days to cny. The qns in my head is whether I will get a half day on Friday. I doubt so. Coy's exteremely stingy. We didn't have a half day on the friday before xmas and ny last yr, and we apparently did very well last year, brought in a lot of money. So this cny, I am not expecting much. Stingy. I wonder if the schools are having half days.

Anyway, if I were given half day, I prob go swim go to town and go home the normal time. Will just tell my parents I have to work at usual, lest I be embroiled in all the non stop spring cleaning.

I went chinatown. It was not as crowded as I expected. I didn't pespire. But it was a hassle trying to find a place to park. Why is it that everyone can afford cars???? We shall not even go there. Anyway, I spent $40 bucks on sweets, those taiwan sweets. I belived I was conned. I mean they were 1.80/100g. I couldnt have bought so much. It was actually $36, but the guy refused to return me $4 and just threw more sweets into my bag. It wasn't even in the flavour I wanted. Got slightly pissed and helped myself by just dumping his display into the bag.

So maybe, I did buy $40 worth in total.

Besides that, I do not feel the cny mood at all.

Not the least bit. I have no new clothes. I loathe going to buy. Shopping, as I always maintained, is tiring. Its more of a social activity to me. I hate the blasting dong dong chiang music they have to play in every shop. It drives me out of the shop immediately.

I do not feel joyous, no mood. Its like ok. p.hol and then the drought. In fact I am dreading it.
Same old routine every yr. Even the though of collect ang baos does not entrall me any more. No doubt I collect quite a fair bit each yr. Its like ok lor, you want to give you give lor, else nm. Becuase to me, that money I get from the ang baos is no longer enough.

When I was schooling it was great, extra pocket money, bank account got bigger. Now, its not as if the bit of ang bao money will help me buy a car or a flat. Its all relative I guess. Now, its like, I get my regular pay, no difference. I guess my wants and needs perhaps have changed.

This one colleague of mine has been anticipating cny since dec. I do not understand him. But then again, he is malayisan. and comes from a kampung. I really hate that innocence abt him. When we were complaining that we hated the dong dong chiang songs, he said he liked them. I really felt like strangling him then. When we were lamenting how we hated renunion dinners, he said he enjoyed them and was looking forward to it. He talks abt cny as if he were living in the 80s. My 80s. MAybe his hometown is indeed that backwards. Anyway, the look of him pisses me off, but yet I have to smile.

Besides him, I dun really know anyone else who truly enjoys and looks forward to cny. Sad isn't it.

Eat and puke

Today I ate till I vomitted. As in v o m i t t e d. Sounds anoexic doesn't it.

I had dinner at Brazil Churrascaria at Chimes. The plan was to eat BBQ Jap food but it was too crowded, so we looked at the directory and headed for BC. Afterall, its a meat place and I am a meat person.

At BC, they cook theur meat over a griller. The passador will then come to your table with a large skewer of one type ofmeat and start slicing pieces onto your plate with a sharp knife. The knife is really sharp, its a bit intimidating at times imho. Then, another guy appears with another skewer with another type of meat.

I think I ate soo much meat. I was quite enthu about it at the start cos I was relatiely hungry. I never said no when they came the first 10 times. Each time they slice off meat, its at leat 3 chunky slices. After 20 mins, I felt so faint. My head was light and all the blood was in the stomach. I got so so so sick. The meat was tasty but after a while, it all tasted the same.

Then, I started feeling like i needed to burp. Thankfully I can burp unlike susu. I felt so queest. It would have helped if we left and walked about, but no, Alboy continued eating. He even had to undo his pants button. When he was finally done, I had to like stop myself from vomitting at least 3 times.

We walked out, I burped and immediately vomitted. I think I vomitted the fruits at the very end and like 3 mouthful of meat. Not too bad. I thought I would empty my whole stomach.

We were the only chinese there, and the smallest size. The rest were fat angmos. There was this one guy that was at least twice my size. It figures anyway, only angmos can gorge themselves like this.

For $39, it was not too bad but I don't think I ever want to eat there again.

After I puked, I had this big craving for bubble red tea with pearls. I so miss those bubble tea crazy days. I really enjoy bubble tea.

Sleeping beauty

Its amazing, I sleep 16 hours a day and I feel sleep now. How wonderful, except that I have stuff to do.

I got arrowed big time at work. Because I am in between job scopes, I do everything. Plus they never had a position like this before, so no one knows what my new job scope, including my boss and me, is. Thus, they load me. Its nothing much at the moment, but I do hate programming so, and I have been arrowed to write a program. I dun even know what the main function of it is. Sigh. Help. Enough about work.

I did a $8 pedicure. It was great cos it was $8, else it was nothing fantastic. I hope the colour lasts till cny. As usual, they tried to sell me a package. $380 for 10 times pedi +mani. It was quite cheap really, esp after I bargained it to 15 pedi +5 mani instead. But then again, why would I want to pay so much at a go? I mean its nice to get your feet done, but I don't need to do it every month. I rather do it as and when I feel like it.. so it will feel more like giving myself a treat then a routine. No doubt I pay more per time this way, but I feel it makes more money sense. I think I only went for 5 , 6 pedi in 2005. At least 2 of which were promotional prices.


I am going to BKK at the end of Feb. For work but I guess I will get to play. If I had remained at my old position, I would be going Austin again in 2 weeks. This time, I will arrange to stop by at LA. I so want to go LA. I guess I have to give that up. I might be going Austin in August, but if I do, I be travelling with my boss and I would not be able to stopby anywhere. Its too tiring just going all the way there and back. The perk is to be able to stop by at a fun city.

Bought tics to MOAG tomorrow. Yeah.

The day before p.hol

So, I thrilled my dad by packing my room today. I guess he was half expecting me to go out because tomorrow is a p.hol. My room really doesn't look any neater, I just took things off, wiped the dust and put them back, throwing away junk in the process. No matter how hard I try to arrange my things, its just that messy.

Then, my dad kept popping into the room to see how long I would last. Usually I attempt to clean for 5 good minutes and I take off. I cleaned for almost an hour today. In his own words, "waa i never seen you like this". Man, he doesn't know that I been cleaning my room in sections, I even packed my wardrobe the other day. The clothes are all neatly stacked up, not like in the rolled up ball they usually are.

Lets hope this last 2 weeks into cny, when my relatives stomp my house. We go to each other place for dinner till we complete everyone's house, my mum being the youngest so we are always last and about 2 weeks into cny.

I just spoke to J on msn, he is my colleague from hk. I met him briefly in Austin and we toured SFO together. He was absoutely sticky and my sg colleague thinks he has a crush on me. I think so too actually but I cannot possibly admit it. Alas, he falls into the freako category of people that I somewhat always manage to attract. Alboy blames it on my teeth, but thats another story all together.

My point is that J is also moving out of his position to do some other role. It just reinforced and made me happy that I moved too, else I be like this big loser that is still stuck.

I been spending too much money on cabs. I spent a total of $50 since the year started. $30 of which I can claim. The other $20 cos Alboy had to drop me at absoulutely ulu place, places where there are no train stations ard and places where its so not worth trying to figure out the buses cos its was too late at night. Thus, I cabbed. It cost at least $10 from anywhere in sg to my house.

Its riduclous. Tiong Bahru to here is $9.70. YCK to here is $13. Holland V to here is $9. Orchard to here is $10. ECP is $15. Airport is $19. It baffles me.

2006 so far so good

Ok, I been wanting to blog since forever but have yet to do so.

Point 1: Do not ever go to Imperial Treasure Nan Bei Restaurant on the 5th floor of Ngee Ann city to eat. It the one just beside Seoul garden. Its terrible terrible terrible, horrible. Trust me.

First the seats were placed so closely to the next table, to close for you to really eat without listening in to the conversations around you. It did not help that they placed us next to gays and we had to endure listening to their exploits. Its the first time I hear gays talk abt their exploits and who was a good catch because he drove a Beemer 5 series and who wasn't. Gross.

The food and service is really really bad. The roasted goose meat was fatty cold tasteless. The veg and pork ribs took 30 mins after to arrive. 30 mins leh. I was fuming. Service was so bad. Guess what, the veg, pork ribs were tasteless too. Its that kinda tasteless that make you feel like vomitting. Its that gross. Really really bad. The more I ate the more pissed off I got.

Alboy actually went to complain to the manager in charge. So, take it as a sign that the food is really really not worth eating. Ususally I bitch and he is the nice one. This time round, he was furious too.

We had to wash everything off with Haagen Daaz ice-cream afterwards.

It was terrible.

Point 2: One of my resolutions was to meet up with more friends this yr. Well, I met up with my JC mates and would have went to Settlers if they did not close so early. However, my dad was bellowing at me at going out so much. I counted and it was just Thurs and Friday. So dud. Ok, I prob be out sat and sun too but its like so dud. I dun like doing the cny spring cleaning much anyway.

Point 3: So, I got back into my regular swimming routine now that I am no longer on leave. I swam 3 times this week, there were only 4 working days. I went to cut my hair on the missing day cos it was raining. Finally eh. There was an increased number of people in the gym. Esp the ladies. It so irritating. I bet it was everyone's new yr resolution. I expect that increase to last prob 1 mth after cny before everyone starts procrasinating. Usually I am the only one in the pool or maybe 2 more stray cats. Now there are like 5/6 people there not counting me. The pool only has 4 lanes. 2 of which does not end properly, meaning you have to an awkard turn to swim back.

Verdict: 2006 so far so good.

Thus far

So I have been on leave this whole week and what have I done? Nothing really.

I have fallen into this slumber where i sleep at 4am and wake up at 4pm. It amazes me how fast I switch timezones. But it feels awful really, like so unproductive. Although I do not think being at work fuelling a coporataion's growth is productive, it does give me a false sense of self-worth.

I'm growing fat too, think i put on another kg or so. Usually when I don't eat the whole day, my stomach becomes sucked in, now there's actually blubber. Whatever, I will swim it away when the new year starts.

I stayed over at Alboy's twice this week, mainly watching dvds and vcds while he sleeps. I can't sleep before 4, so I just amuse myself by rummaging through his collection of cds and watching them on his 42" tv while he lies like dead weight beside me. Best part - he sleeps so soundly he has no idea I finished watching 3 movies. Sideways was uber boring.

I have this huge urge to go MoS. More to see the place and say I been there than to cheong. Contrary to popular believe, I was never a cheongester. I have no idea why people think I drink and party a lot. I don't, in fact, I almost never.

Tomorrow I am finally going to town.

Reflection

What happened this yr
1) I went to Taipei, Manila, Hanoi, SFO , Austin. Not bad really, I believed this is the most travelled yr ever in my life. To new places somemore. Would have squeezed in more if Alboy was free-er.

2) I had to deal with training and re-training my colleagues after they left after a short stint. However, at the end of the year, I think I landed up with the best team I had since I led it.

3) I lost motivation at work but found it back at the end of the year. I will proceed on to a new role next year. I also found out how nice some of my colleagues can be. Oh, I also found out who the backstabbers and bitches in the company are.

4) I had my first facial and massage and sauna and BW and threading session this year. It was great. I have since fallen into a bottomless pit.

5) I joined the gym and swam almost everyday since April.

6) I cut my hair the most number of times this yr. I decided it was a waste of money and I havn't cut it for 4 months and counting since. I think I bought the most number of shoes this yr too. Havn't bought a pair in like 4 months since.

7) I found out how dear my parents, esp my Dad, are to me. I need to work on expressing my feelings through actions more.

8) I belived I got the angriest with Alboy this yr. Prob over the stupid wedding. But all in all, I belived I had the greatest yr with him as well. Words cannot really express it all but I think he is one of the best things that every happened to me.

Things I want to do in 2006

1) I want to excel at my new position. I have to. Its a brand new position and I am scared shitless but I really want to prove to everyone I can do it.

2) I have to be more absolute and procrasinate less. I have decided to pen a to-do-list.

3) To visit new cities. Toying with the idea of bringing my mum to korea, but that may conflict with my new job scope. See how. I want to go somewhere with Alboy too.

4) Meet up with my friends more.

5) Save at least 10K. 15K would be nice although I think it will be pushing it.

6) Sleep less, wake up earlier.

7) Make my parents less pissed with me less often. This is going to be a tall order though.

There we go again.

You know how i blog things then forget what I blogged about.

I was rereading my previous post today and I wrote:
I guessed an external harddisk and computer will make me happy at this pt in time, but this is not what I want as a bday gift

Guess what Alboy got me for a bday gift? Ya, Bingo.
He is the worst present giver ever. Failed thrice.

Zones

I spoke to my boss recently and he says I fall into zones.

Zones where I am very happy and everything is pink and rosy for me and zones when I am depressed and everything stinks.

I never known myself to be like this. I asked Alboy and he says I switch between these zones often within the week. But I dont trust Alboy and I do not think my boss meant this on a weekly basis. I still have no idea. Do I fall into such zones?

Then, I reread my blog posts, I was so happy my last post but I cried or was the verge of crying for two days after that. Turns out that my boss offered me a position to stay with the company, and I am going mad just thinking what to do. I still do not know what to do. I get swayed right left very fast.

I know the decision is ultimately mine to make and consequences mine to bear, but I guess I just need that reasurrance from people that matter to me that I am making the 'right' choice, to encourage and be by me. I feel like I am being too troublesome but I can't help it.

The decision making just gets so much harder when you grow up. I guess thats what life is all about. I am glad that I be going on leave soon enough. Then, I do not have to go to work too much.

My birthday's coming, perhaps its time to switch to the so-called happy zone.
I wonder if people know exactly what they want on their bday. I don't. I never did somehow.

I guessed an external harddisk and computer will make me happy at this pt in time, but this is not what I want as a bday gift. Its just something that will make me happy because it pains me to spend so much money on it now. I am on a 'save money' campaign now. Save for what, I also dun know. Such are the ironies of life.

I thought abt it long and hard. What would be great bday presents?
- jewellery. Nice ones, I have to admit that I am somewhat taken by their beauty recently. I like staring at them. But I do not go out to buy them, or want anyone to buy for me, because they are so expensive and I think the money can be better spent

- bags. Nices ones, for all ocassions. Only girls will understand this. I never thought I be like this because most of my bags are ugly or I usually hold everything in my hands. Nice bags do not have to be expensive, I saw a few nice ones at some push-carts recently but I was never one to buy on impulse, so I left them on the pushcarts.

- facial and spas packages. To pamper thyself would be nice.

- Great company, great friends, great parties. What more can I ask for?

Aiooya Ee, Aiooah Oh , Aiooah Ah Ah Ah

I been quite happy recently!

I went through a period of difficult decision making and now that I made my decision, things should and look up from here.

I am so glad because it is approaching my bday. Much as I dissed the fanfare about birthdays, I feel happy when my birthday is coming.

Partly because Xmas is nearing too, and that joy is in the air, everyone seems to be in a happier mood looking forward to hols and clearing leave. Plus its good that there are so many sales, it makes you feel like you can shop, although most of the time things are still too expensive or out of what I am willing to pay.

Then, I just cracked my DVD player. I am so proud of myself. I found the crack in Portuguese, got it translated. The translation didn't really make sense because the sentence structured was all screwed up. It was like "With device off, it presses the OPEN in the remote control to open the tray". I was like..how to open tray when device off. But apparently, you can open tray with device off.

Now I can watch Sister hood of the travelling pants tonight! and oh, Amazing race season finale is on tonight too!

So happy!

I also recently discovered the joy of going into the sauna. The place where I swim daily has a sauna, I have never used it in all the 8 mths I been swimming there mainly because the sauna is in the toilet and to on it, you have to get the key from the counter. The counter of course is positioned at the door and I really do not fancy walking dripping wet across the whole gym to ask for the key in my swimsuit. Thus, I never bothered with the sauna, plus the only memory I have of going into a sauna was when I was very very very young and it was not pleasant.

About 2 weeks ago, a colleague joined the gym and she is so into sauna. I went in with her once because she in her nice and dry gym clothes had no problem walking across the gym asking for the key, unlike the fish out of water me. It was really nice. I loved the way perspiration formed and it really felt very very good. I feel very peaceful and surreal after that. I went in myself a few times after that. Most of the time I sneaked in after someone else used it, so the room would still be heated. It wasn't as hot sometimes if I go in long after the previous person. Sometimes, my colleagues switches it on it for me and it is piping hot. Really really nice.

I need to go read about the proper sauna procedure. I cannot figure whether to bath before or after, dry my hair or not. Now what i do is, I bath after my swim, bath as in shop and shampoo. Wrap myself in a towel, blow my hair dry, then go into the sauna. Come out and rinse off the perspiration. I need to do some goggling about this. Goggle knows all.

Oh ya, my mum bought Ba Gua. You know how much I love eating it. Not as much as I used to a few years ago, but I still do. I used to have them all year round.

What would really make me senseless happy now is a nice peach. I been having peach cravings for ages. But according to my mum, the peachy season is out now. She used to buy those really really nice peaches, like those Sun Wu Kong will eat. I love those peaches.

Peach peach peach..i want peach.

Go away - "Joey does not share Food "

Never Never Never ask me to lend you my books!

I hate lending people my books because none of you knows how to take care of them. They either come back with the spine bent or with dog ears, that is if you ever plan on returning them.

BTW which idiot has my Prisoner of Azkaban? I am pretty sure I bought the book but it never got back to me.

I really hate people asking me to lend them my books. Why are you all so Cheapo!! Buy your own books. How much can you save? A simple paper back is less than $20, more popular books are $50 max. If you are that cheap, go to the library or find someone who is willing to lend u. Or, download it off the internet to read. I know people who have read the whole HP series on the net. At least they do not go around badgering people to loan them books.

I always smile and say next time, or wait till my siblings finish reading to avoid lending out my books. My siblings do not read, it is my ruse to not lend you books. My closer friends will know that I refuse them outright telling them to go buy their own books instead. I believed I scared of Samuel when I did that to him.

To make you envious/jealous, I have a fantastic library of books! That is because I spend a lot of money on it. I do not buy much stuff, but I splurge on books.
I have
- ALL the Enid Blyton books, yes I mean ALL. Those were from my younger days.
- EVERYTHING Roald Dahl has written. Again from my younger days
- COMPLETE series of HP except Azkaban, US Covers somemore.
- COMPLETE series of Hitchhiker Guide
- COMPLETE series of Artermis Fowl
- COMPLETE series of Naria
- COMPLETE series of Lemony Snickers
- COMPLETE series of Dan Brown
- COMPLETE series of Jack Welch
- COMPLETE series of LOTR, including the Bilbo Baggins one.
- COMPLETE set of Stephen Hawking
- ALMOST all of Jostein Gardner
These books are not exactly the best of my collection but they have been widely commercialised that you do not need a bookworm to recognise these titles

I list these books because everyone seems to want to borrow one of these. My own siblings included. They are damn lucky cos my parents will refuse me to disallow them to touch my books. I have more. Mitch Albom, Candace Bushnell, the very commercialise books etc.

You name it I probably have it. Or am going to buy it once I get to the next book fair.

So damn irritated. So remember, NEVER NEVER ask me to loan you my books and SPREAD THE WORD ARD.

BBQ

I had a great bbq last night and I was in bed by 1am. Such is the growing needs of a young adult. I seem to need so much sleep these days.

The bbq was fun except that I had a few misgivings abt certain things.

Ms L tried to shove me $20 bucks before she left. It was like duh, really unnecessary because we go back a long way and besides you cannot really price friendship. Anyhow, $20 was too much, you didn't even drink a single drop of the beer.

What pissed me off was that some of my friends were really cheapo. Those that read this blog, or those that I know read this - I am not referring to you. You guys are close enough for me to not matter about such things. I also do not refer to those I told they do not have to bring anything.
I shall not elaborate. It is hard to verbalised such things without coming off sounding like a loser miser.

Alboy says it this way, he feels that good food makes a difference to a bbq and he is more than willing to share good food along with his culinary skills. He however too agreed some of the people present were cheapo.

Anyway, Alboy thinks that he is super eligible now and keeps using the fact against me. He bbq-ed all the food.. the last time i bbqed with him, there was hunky roy to take over the bbq. Roy surprisingly BBQed very well too. Everything was nicely done. It was the best bbq then, super good food, all nicely cooked.

The week thus far

Gosh, yet another silly morning when I forget to bring my phone to work.

No one calls me much anyway, however, I am waiting for calls that turn out important and could change the way my life turns out. Anyway my phone is on very low batt. I thought I remembered putting it into my nice orangey velet case and into my bag before I left the house.

I do not have much to blog about these days. Really. Life has so far been so stagnant you can mass breed dengue mossys in it.

I had a good week thus far, I hope it goes on smoothly.

Lets see,

Monday whizzed pass me. I couldn't even remember what I did ,where I went. Oh ya, I remembered now.

The weather was so cool on Monday, it was this nice breezy cool air. Ms L had told me that the temperature was a nice 24-28 degrees and I refused to believe. I mean when is our weather ever this temp? Also, weather reports are as reliable as those tiny plastic forks they give you when you order meat.

I went to swim and it was wonderful. The water was chily. It was nice really. I did ten glorious laps of freestyle and I savoured every moment of it. The plunging of your arm back into the cool water and the feeling of the cold water on your back against your warm body. It was really great. I never thought I will enjoy swimming in cold weather that much.

I watched Harry Potter on TV then, Daniel was so much cuter, now he is just 'Euro trash'. Also, it is amazing or rather disgusting how Rupert morphed into this ugly thing. Am going to watch Chicken Little tonight. *thanks to the people up north*

Tuesday. I met my primary sch mates. I never fail to have fun with them. E was as usual noisy, it amazes me sometimes how she vehemently insists on something when we all know otherwise, or how she always manages to explain things in circles. If she were a stranger, I would have condemn her. But I guess over 15 yrs of friendship has left me deeply biased.

Wednesday went pass me. I spent the first half of the day slightly nervous but felt tremedously better after lunch. I swam another 10 glorious laps in chilly waters again. Its really quite nice.

Today, the sun is finally out. I kinda miss the cool weather already.

Love hate

I hate people who stand on the first step of the double decker bus(esp when the bus is not packed) , thus forcing me to be stuck in the spiral area. It makes it extremely difficult to balance.

I hate having no hot breakfast and having to eat wholemeal bread and cheese. Although, I seemed to have an acquired taste of wholemeal bread and cheese.

I hate feeling like I have not enough sleep and yet have to keep awake.

I hate smoke smell. And this follows, it is alright to say I hate smoke smell, but if you say I hate the smell of Race X, you will be deemed racist. I do not understand. They smell that way because of the spices they use. So, it is ok to say, I hate the smell of spice A but not ok to say I hate the smell of Race X, when the smell of Race X is esentially the smell of Spice A. Again, I am reminded of 1984 George Orwell.

I hate having to work cause I have to.

I hate wearing jeans/long pants when its freaking hot. That makes it most of the time.

I hate being all wet from pespiration and feeling all sticky because I have to walk to the busstop within an hour of my bath.

I hate having to pretend to eat food I do not like and say I am full becuase I do not want to eat when in fact I am starving.

I hate it when I have no tissue when I have a leaky nose.

I love to swim

I love snuggling up in bed when I feel extremely fatiq

I love sleepin on my right. However, I prefer sleeping to the left of my bed partner.

I love Berries Flo.

I love being on leave.

*crys*

I am so depressed. Sigh. So sad. Heart Heavy