The High Life

Its 3am and I just got home. I'm kinda tired and still have to hook up my DVD player because I must watch the last 10 mins of The Devil Wears Prade but I just have to word this before the moment is gone.

I just found out I actually love the night life so much. I have always been a night creature but mostly I am stuck in my room, recently I had the opp to be out and best of all , at the wheel. The feeling is tremendously. The first time I did that, i had a high that lasted 2 days.

If I had the wheel more often, I properly be really really really tempted to get my own set. I think I have arrived at a stage where I probably can afford a car, abeilt I do not get to save as much as I want. If I had taken the job offer last yr, my car would be one year old now. Much as I like to be driven, the feeling of being in control is fantastic. I think this must be mainly due to the facts that I drive at night and there is no traffic. I can swerve across 3 lines and do perpendicular turnings with it without having to neogoitate the congested arteries of day time traffic.

I love being able to lead my own life and forget about work. I been reading watching high fashion shows, not by purpose but rather concidentally. I need that kinda passion, energy and purpose for life that the characters have. Now I just lug myself to work. At least now I have started something on the side that is supposed to burn the fire in me. I am getting quite old and need to be on top of my game.

Recently I been looking and buying pretty things and its getting me onto a high as well. I have this huge shoe obession now and it doesn't help that Alboy is supporting me on this. He believes that a girl cannot have too many shoes and thinks that 30 plus shoes are cheap. Even up to less than a hundred is fine for him as long as the design is nice, cos he says that guy shoes cost a whole lot more. I think this is someone who has like what. 3 Kenneth Coles? and has to get a new pair to match his new trousers?

K, need to go hook up the DVD and wake up by 9.30 tomorrow. Am on Leave. Happiness. This has to be one of the best CNY.

I am delidrious.

*note- i'm too tired to go thru spelling n grammer edits. So be it.

My world travel map

Ya, so this is where I been and lived. Feels empty to me.
The naming of the places got messed up. I wanted the city, country format but because the maps were as usual as not as detailed in the asia region, it was hard to pinpoint exact locations so I just left them as countries in Asia. Want to go Europe

Updates

Just a short one, more like an update.
Been in office till midnight everynight for a week already and counting. Super tired. Going to Phil on Sunday back on Friday then its cny. Humongous stuff going around at work, working with stupid people makes everything doubly hard to do. Can't wait for massage + facial. Can envision myself sleeping there,
Tataz

Turn turn turn turn

Its a cycle. Maybe its hormonal, maybe its the weather. I just feel slightly depressed come Sunday nights. The good thing is I have gotten used to it.

Am supposed to be studying for my malay test tomorrow but I did none of those. I checked my email, was hijacked to friendster and now am too tired to absorb anything. Methinks me will just head straight to bed.

My colleagues have been adding me to friendster and they have been putting my photo up on their profile. This sucks. I want to be faceless on the net. I have sucessfully asked all my friends not to put my photo on their blogs and these idiots just keep posting picture after picture of me. Sucks. Don't you need your friend's permission to post their picture? Maybe I am self centerd of what, I never ever put my friends picture on the www.

Actually, I wil not mind it so much if it were a group picture and faces small and unclear. I hate to be identified like this, esp if I were in a V neckline dress that reveals cleavage. Maybe I will go ask them to pull the picture down. Some of them are profile pictures somemore. OMG.

Its going to be a crazy week. I do not have such a good feeling abt it. I just want friday to come and go fast. Friday, finally. One city down another 4 more to go. Just thinking of it makes me pant. In another post, I will write about what I really think about. In short, its kinda pointless. We are but the labour to make the wheels turn.

Time traveller's wife has been so far so good. Sometimes I do wish I had the ability to see into the future, abeilt without the losing of clothes part.

OK. need to go at least read some malay. Cikgu thinks I'm his top student. No Joke. But thats just because I am the most serious about it. The others skip classes all the time. Am going to terribly dissapoint him tomorrow.

A good read.

Today was one of those days that I wake up not knowing which day of the week it is. It has been a long time since I felt this way. On hindsight, I felt the same way on Sunday but since it was a Sunday, I gladly and promptly fell back to sleep.

 I bought The Time Traveller's Wife and am immensely happy with myself. Now I have a nice book to indulge in instead of catch 22. That I will slowly read, I plan to finish that too since it does have rave reviews. At least that keeps me happy for the time being.

Bought a pretty dress at 24 bucks too. Quite a steal. The problem with me is I keep buying dresses telling myself that it is for my malay colleague's wedding in March. But everytime I see a  nice dress, i keep telling myself that I will wear this dress instead of the previous. Now I have like 3 different dresses for the wedding. Thankfully they are all in the 20-30 dollars range. Don't need to be so fanciful for void deck reunification.  

Need a good book.

Now that I finished reading eldest, I feel slightly empty. I have been so used to being transported to another world everynight and now I feel a bit sad. Embarked on catch 22, but I keep falling asleep after 2 page. I need a better book.

I watched Apocalypto. It was gruesome - the wrong movie to be sucking on a popsicle. I felt like puking halfway. Usually gory doesn't have an effect on me, but eating and watching at the same time was a tad too much. Good thing the lead looked a bit like Jerry Yan. Next time I will just watch a bimbo show - something like legally blond.

Work is going to be trying this week. I think I made some bad blood in office. I have a feeling some people out there are starting to hate me. Everyday i feel like a racehorse running towards the finishing line, but with 2 huge sandbags pulling me down. I don't understand some people really. I hate to sound arrogant but I really think their procesing and thinking capabilities are much slower than mine. Certain things that to me are only a minor hicchup, they spend hours agonising over it, with no apparent progress in sight.

Going to do a mini asean tour coming feb-mar. Hopefully after that life will be smoother. I am also convinced everything I touch turns to rock. Since the start of this yr these things have broken - house heater, scv box in my room, hdb lift(had to walk up and down for 2 days), camcorder (twice), computer (2 computers, had a major time resurrecting them).

On a happier note, I have been swimming much faster. Partly cos I get so angry with above mentioned colleagues that I have so much pent up energy to expend during lunch. I feel my muscles hardening and I am darker. Its strange, I swim during lunch all the time but only start getting darker recently. Maybe its because I been going at noon instead of 1pm, not sure if an hour really makes that much difference.

p/s.Thanks moi for the comment - when you are less busy lets go shopping or do nails or something.

The mental mind

I waited for 40 minutes at the busstop only to find out that I missed the last bus. I meant, it was only 12.10am so I thought I had a chance, after all the bus came from Toa Payoh and I was at KAP. I saw the bus going the other direction. All the other buses came but mine. Eventually someone sms me and I asked him to checked the timing, the bus left TP at 1130pm. Strange, I must have just missed the bus. It was ridiculous. I had to take a cab, which I initially resisted because I only had 2 dollars with me and refused to spend more money on cabs. Cabbed I did, paid with NETs, the surcharge is only 30 cents compared to the pricely 15% with credit cards. Felt so duh, accumulated even more negative energy in me with no outlet.

All this negative eneregy has been in me. I know not the reason. Work has been trying but I usually am not affected by work since I refuse to let my life rotate around it. Have been more bored with Alboy recently, its just the routiness of things. Meet late, cannot do anything, dinner home. Screamed and short fused at him a couple of times, not my fault entirely. He has been having a trying time at work too. Sometimes I consider myself really lucky, because when I am in the mangzhang mood, he actually is not ignorant of it and is rather sensitive. Even puts in extra effort to soothe me. I am sure all the other guys out there would have went ballastic. At least I can easily think of at least 5 guys who will do it.

Been reading eragaon and I am fasinated with the idea of how strong the mental mind is. You can easily kill troops by just thinking and using the correct ancient word. I mean, how cool would it be if I can mentally maim my uselsss colleagues every morning.

I went mental shopping today, in preparation for cny. I didn't spend any money because I felt rather poor after attending all the weddings. My mental purchases were - a pink sequined top ($40), a long sleeve top ($40), two pairs of Charles and Keith shoes ($60) , 9west shoes ($108) and Time Travellers Wife at 40% discount ($12). It easily came up to $250. See, how fast money is spent. Sigh.

I think I will actually buy these items (except 9west - too pricey) , maybe later or at a time when I feel richer. Oh, whoever who wants to buy Charles and Keith shoes, please hold on and let me know. I decided I want to qualify for the discount card. I need to spend $120. Since the shoes are pretty affordable, it does make sense to qualify for the discount. The newer designs are actualy pretty decent.

I need more mirth in life.

January's first monday.

I feel as if my weekend were robbed from me.
First I had another wedding to attend. Seriously, I am soo soo soo soo sick of weddings. Esp colleague's wedding. I would be forced to go, forced to give a decent ang bao, forced to mingle and smile on a Saturday. I think I deserve my break.
Then I had to wake up early on Sunday to go to this Fengshui talk. Seriously, after 8 hours of fengshui, everything just sounds the same. Put this that in your room to prevent this that from happening. Apparently, its going to be a not bad yr for my zodiac sign although it is in indirect clash with the grand duke of jupiter..hahaha.
It didn't let up at night, the warm weather prevented me from sleeping, so I switched on the aircon and my nose acted up. Perfect eh.
My first start of a full week after a long time. I need to plan my leave. Apparently, I would need to take at least 2 days to make sure my leave doesn't get swallowed up.
Now that I am back at work, its back to listening to the nuances of inefficient colleagues, I want to be immerse in my world of riders, elves, drawves, dragons!                  

Its almost amazing how I manage to screw up my body clock the first day I go on leave. Feaking 2.33am and I am as awake as an owl.

I was perching and puking for 12 hours before, which meant I slept all the time, thus the alertness now. Its the Godiva milkshake, I tell u, they probably used stale milk. A 8 dollars a pop, it was so not worth drinking. I tossed and turned about in bed before trying to do something more useful, like do my malay homework.

Its frustating. I am starting to doubt my initial motives for learning the langugae. I wanted to be able to read all the malay signs and understand when the malay speaks. Not that I have any malay friends anyway. It just pisses me off that the Malaysian chinese can speak 3 languages and us, only 2. At the rate I am going, I will hardly be able to converse in Malay. I do my homework by checking the dictionary for almost every single word. It is not that I do not commit to memory the words, I do, I really do but the vocab is just so vast. Not to mention sentence construction. The Zhao Ju baffles me totally.

Sigh

Anyway I was thinking its about time I looked at my Dec 2005 post to see if I achieved anything this yr. So far its not bad. Thats mainly cos I made so general statements. I still feel a bit aimless about life, about if there is more to life then just contributing to a MNC where you are but one in the big picture. I guess most of 2006 was spent at work, going home, going out with Alboy and going to work.

Nevertheless, lets see

1) I want to excel at my new position. I have to. Its a brand new position and I am scared shitless but I really want to prove to everyone I can do it.
Well, I'm still working on it. I need time to prove this.

2) I have to be more absolute and procrasinate less. I have decided to pen a to-do-list.
Hahah, I had a to-do list. For like 3 months before I gave up. Thing is, I do not have much to do. I see it as a bad thing. Like I said, my now revolves around going to work, waiting for weekend and sleep.

3) To visit new cities. Toying with the idea of bringing my mum to korea, but that may conflict with my new job scope. See how. I want to go somewhere with Alboy too.
No Korea, we went hk instead. I figured it was cheaper even though we stayed at a very expensive hotel. Where did I go in 2006 - KL, Pg, BKK, Manila, LA, Vegas, Austin, HK. No new countries. New cities include LA, Vegas and Pg though. This is prob the yr I spent the most months travelling. Considering I went to the States for a month. Pg twice. Alboy was with me for 2 glorious week in Austin, LA and Vegas.

4) Meet up with my friends more.
Not too sure about this. Seems to be having lesser and lesser friends. Been going out with work colleagues a lot, which I still have not figured out if its a good or bad thing.

5) Save at least 10K. 15K would be nice although I think it will be pushing it.
Hahahaha.

6) Sleep less, wake up earlier.
Since my life revolved around going to work (notice I say going to work, not work), I wake up at 744 am for most part of the year. I still sleep through all weekends though.

7) Make my parents less pissed with me less often. This is going to be a tall order though.
Am not sure about this.

Things that happen in 2006
You know what I do not know. Last year, I could write things like I cut my hair the most times blar blar, frivulous as it may be. This yr, my mind draws a blank slate. I remembered wanting the year to go by very fast at the start of the year, that was mainly due to my unstable state cos of work issues and partly cos I was eager to get out of the training phase and go to US. Now that the year has indeed raced past me, I am at a lost.

Either that, or things just do not mean that much to me anymore.
Does baking muffins for the very first time in my life count? I took pictures, but I forgot how to post them on blogger. Too lazy to go meddle.

I browsed through my blog enteries for the year and this is what I concluded happened in 2006
- I spent the most time away from home in a foreign country.
- I actually spent a lot of time at work at the start of the year. My early postings were all " I left the office after 8", probably part of the reason why I wanted the year to whizz by.
- I seemed to be buying a lot of shoes.
- Alboy got me a lovely bday present this time. This was solely due to the fact that I finally managed to verbalised myself and told him what I wanted. I even got pass the uneasy feeling of choosing the design with him and making him pay for it. Something I would never do before.
- Probably the year I watched the least movies.
- A blog entry got featured on Digital Times. I forgot about it until I reread my entries. See, thats how significant things are to me these days.

What I want to do in 2007
I do not know yet.
- Start tennis lessons maybe?
- Do something on the side. Maybe just learning how the stock market works or some new programming language, or just something, some money making scheme.
Will post when I think of more.

Season Greetings

So, the torrential 3 day rain finally stopped. I was hoping it will still be raining when I woke up this morning. I think its kinda cool to have it rain all the time. I love the rain and I'm not even complaining that I forgot to bring my brolly out when I rushed out of the house yesterday and had to walk in the rain. I even ate ice cream while walking in the rain. I had this melon ice cream craving for weeks and I just had to eat one melon ice cream regardless of the weather.

Its very amazing how the mud is still so soft even after 12 hours of sunshine. Usually, the mud here is super hard, now my heels sink into the mud every step I take.

The pool was super cold today, I think its all rain water in the entire pool today. Its quite cool actually. Now that the sun is out, its so so so hot again. But, then again the rain doesn't cool things down much because the humidity is still so high.

Town was crazily packed yesterday even at 5pm. I went to La Senza and they had this lovely sale. I am so tempted to go back and get things in all different colours. I got some xmas presents already. I'm a bit shocked that my colleague gave me a 100 dollar Metro Voucher as xmas present and a separate birthday present. Considering I only bought a 30 dollar gift for her for xmas, now, I need to get something good for her birthday next year. Maybe I should even stop complaining about her going on and on about her wedding plans.

I need to enjoy my birthday tomorrow. Sleep in, and look ahead to the next week because I do not have to go to work. Yippee. December is always good.

A good read

After sending out the last post, I decided the solution to all that rambling is that I need a good book.
I am one issue behind my weekly reading of Times, but I so need a good book.
Any recommendations? I'm looking along the lines of books like Tipping point, Freakanomics  etc etc...

Yet another wedding.

I attended my cousin's wedding yesterday and again I have this mixed thing abt wedding dinners.

Before the wedding, my stand towards wedding was to make it as simple as possible since nobody will be remembering it.
After my cousin's wedding, I changed my take. Now, its either as posh as possible or as simple as possible.
I was amazed at how much I bitched to myself about my cousin's wedding. Considering it was held at a restaurant, it was a tad different from all the fancy hotels I've been going to. Do not misunderstand me, I am not saying that it is in anyway inferior. It was just different. The crowd was different, more rowdy and dialect speaking. It actually felt more knitted considering there are only half the usual amount of tables. The music and lightning were so ching chong, but the food was actually ok. Hotel food are such horrid.

But, the whole thing was just so strange. I think I been to too many posh weddings. None of my relatives made snide remarks which was kinda surprising. My mum was convinced that at 550 a table it was expensive. I was thinking to myself, omg, if all my uncles think this way too, I will make a huge loss when its my turn. I cannot really verbalize what I feel cos I do not really know. Its just very weird, all I know at the end of the day is that I do not ever want to hold mine in a restaurant. So high class eh. *chides myself*  Mainly because , I do not want cheesy ching chong music, 80s Mission Impossible kinda tuntuntun lightning, cheapo looking gowns and albums. Sigh.  Double Sigh again because this totally contradicts my "I don't care" stand.  

Since my take on it is so extreme - either as posh as possible or as simple as possible. I feel extremely irritated.

Anyway, my take on it is that I am still not interested in all these wedding stuff. The more I am exposed to it, the more irritated I get. Why can't society except two people eloping or having different partners at different stage of your life. Although I stayed with a guy for a long enough time, sometimes, in fact a lot of the time, I just want to be alone. I don't like a lot of things that come with a r/s but I guess its a give and take kinda thing.

Enough rambling, Its Friday, my weekend should be approaching fast. Can't wait to get to my bday and the last week of the year.

As time goes by....

Its one of those days where I wake up absolutely exhausted. I slept well during the weekend. I slept pretty decently last night but still I feel like crap. I conclude again that I am not a morning person. My shoulder no longer aches that much after that lady gave me a absolutely fantastic massage. I hope it lasts.

Recently I grown to detest certain people. Its hard to say why why what what but this is a public blog afterall. Once I put effort to password lock it then I will write more. But really, I do not understand why some people can turn out so different in the years, or why some people think that they are superior/inferior than what they really are. Someone recently had a issue at work where all the colleagues were quarrelling over the 'Best Friend' issue. I thought 'Best Friends' were beyond our time and only existed when you were in primary school. I told her that and that you will probably have different friends at different stages of your life. Unless your characters are a perfect match, two friends will probably at same point in time lag behind each other, which sucks.

Too much undercurrent at work makes me so tired too, or maybe its a combination of the cold air, pc screen and noisy colleagues.

Santa baby...

Santa baby, all I want for Christmas is
- new sony camera
- nice earrings
- new mattress
- non aching body.

Nah, actually Santa baby, all I want for Christmas is peace, quietness and a smile on my face.

Off

So, off to HK back in Sg for 7 hours (in the middle of the night)  before going off to Penang. I feel tired already.
Penang was so last minute. I don't even think I have enough clothes.
Boss is going too so its not going to be fun. Aiyah. Headache. Need to go home. Tataz.

 

Thus far..

Lets see, it has been quite fruitful.
I cut my hair. Finally.
Started Malay classes.
Went to a baby's 1mth old at the far side of the island.
Edited a video clip.
Arranged to play tennis on Friday.
Not bad.

I just need to find a regular tennis coaching kind of thingy.

On another note, my colleague has been going on and on about her wedding/house/photos I am getting so OD. It has been like this for almost a year. She started looking for a place a yr ago but has yet to find one. Then, her bf proposed, it was more like a forced one imho, so there starts the wedding hotels.bridal talk..yadar yadar. I wonder why these people are so obsessed abt getting married.

Sure, getting married is a joyous occasion but really, how many wedding have you attended that you really really want to go? My count so far is none, maybe 1/2.  So my point is, whats the point in making such a hoo haa about your wedding when no one really wants to attend/will remember it.

If I had a choice, i would not even want to have the dinner. Then because its not very likely that will happen, it will be a chop chop affair. No cheesy photos, no dance, no singing, no surprises. Just eat ,hand over your angbao and go! Alboy says I'm heartless, but I really don't care.

Meanwhile, its back to hearing all the wedding ramble day in day out till my colleague gets married. Yucks.

Yet another sigh post

Sigh. I do not know if its another pre-monday blues or what, but I am getting this general I do not know what to do with my life now again.

If this were qaurter life crisis, it better be over in the next mth, am finally turning 26.

 

I feel so restrainted. To say restrained is not the entired truth. Its more like I want to do a lot of things but I am not doing.

Even simple things. Like CUT MY BLOODDY HAIR!!!  Can you believe I procasinated for months. I am so disugsted with myself.

My usual slew of reasons:

- swam in the day, so I do not want to wash my hair many times a day.

- leave office too late, too lazy to take cab, no pt stlying my hair at night

- weekends - I just fall back in to slumber.

- its a money saving action to not cut my hair

 

And then, before you know its its six long months since my last hair cut.

 

 

I just found out my cousin is doing his MBA. He around my age and graduated a yr or two later. I used to be the academically brighter child, but now even he is doing a MBA. In a pathetic way, I feel so sorry for myself. I do not know if its procasination, but I have no idea if an MBA is useful for me. I still do not think its worth the money, but then again, imagine the price of no education. You can't really tag a monetary value to knowledge.

 

And, I cannot get my firewire port to work. Mega sigh

 

Good news is I am starting malay lessons twice a week.

 

I am looking for a tennis buddy, to play on weekday nights. Mon thurs out cos of malay classes.  Possible coaching lessons, rate is $50/hr for two. Anyone interested? Intricate details are not worked out yet.

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Song of the day - "Baby baby hit me one more time"
Fwah- yes, I shall stop lamenting.

Knock me on my head.

I need to be knocked on the head.

Just on monday and tuesday, I was in this semi-conscious state, falling back into slumber every 10minutes or so. I slept like 16 hours a day I think. I told myself, this is not good, I need to go back to work. I even went on to think, thank goodness the next p.holiday is christmas.

Please bash me up today.

The horrid feeling of peeling myself out of the bed at 730am is just too much. I am so not a morning person. I blame the humid weather for making me think that way in the past two days. If the weather were cooler, I prob have no qualms lying in bed the whole day.

I finished book 11 of lemoney snicket and can't wait to know what happens in the end.  I am half tempted to buy the whole series. Its 160 a set. Its quite ok considering there are 13 books. What puts me off is that I know that if I wait, there is prob going to be a 20%, 30% discount some time soon. Also, I already have book 1,2,3, 11, albeit in a different cover. Plus, I know the fact is that my irritating siblings are prob going to rip the collect apart, that happened to CS Lewis and all the other collections I have. I would hesitate less if I have my own place, my own library.

I want to be the 4 in 10

Headlines in ST today were to make p.transport so good that 'My other car is public transport'

 

To that I say, "Xiao eh"

 

Our transport minister must have never taken p.transport on a regular basis. I hate people who make/says such comments.

 

Till today, except for the super rich people that say, oooh I don't need a car because the MRT is so convenient, everyone else wants a car!

 

IMHO, the public transport no matter how fantastic it becomes will never compare to having your own transport.

 

Imagine these scenarios,

 

Would you rather wake up 1 hr early every morning, stand on the train with smelly bodies squashed against you for one whole hour every single working day of your life,  or, sleep in and drive in heavy traffic to your workplace. If it rains, its ok because you park in an underground carpark. With p.transport, good luck to you.

 

Would you rather take the train, carry 1 litre of water everywhere or drive and leave the water in your car. I have to drink a lot of water so I get very frustrated when I have to carry my water around. Firstly, I need a big enough bag to dump my nalgene in, the 500ml one, plus water is really heavy. Oh say, you want to go for a swim/tennis/some random sports before meeting your friends, would you want to lug all your gear around in p.transport.  Fwah, hell no.

 

The shuttle bus from the mrt takes 30mins(not inclusive of waiting time)  to reach my house. A car trip takes 5mins. Would you still want to take p.transport?

 

After you are dead tired from a long day, do you still want to stand 1 hr on p.transport. 1hr is the average time it takes to get to anywhere from my place. You stand on the train/bus, jerking forward backward as the train moves, your bag becomes increasingly heavier.

 

Yup, driving can get maddening when the road jams up. You hear drivers complain abt the horrid jams every morning. These people have driven too much too long that they forgot what it is like to take p.transport. Next time you hear someone complain, just ask them. would you want to take p.transport instead. What makes you think buses do not crawl in the traffic too. The yellow lane thingy makes only a slight difference, that is if you can squeeze your way up the bus first. So many times buses have zoom past me because they were overloaded.

 

Sigh, these ministers. They probably did so well in life they forgot what it is like to take p.transport. Its ridiculous really.

Whatever, keep doing your job and hopefully when I finally own my set of wheels, the road will be totally free for me. The other 6 in 10 people can go take the train to work.