After weddings

I just got back from a wedding, and as usual I always feel depressed after attending weddings. More so when I go with Alboy. I am not entirely sure if the depression is because of the wedding or because its also a sunday night signifying the end of my weekend.

As I was bathing I was thinking, was it my inner need to get married despite what I say about not having to get married that is causing the depressing. I thought about it v long and I still think no. I really really really really still do not see the point of getting married. Maybe at least in the current state of life I am in.

Weddings are really really expensive though. The food today was suprisingly good. Not so much the usual wedding fare, rather different with huge servings. I especially love the tang yuan soup at the end of it.

I guess I prob enjoy it more when a closer fren of mine gets married. I prob feel closer and not like oh yet another wedding to go.

Its another work week tomorrow. Work has recently really be trying. My team at work is highly inadequate, making a lot of mistakes at work. When these happen, even if its not my fault, the chopping knife comes straight to me. I feel totally pekchek, very very pek chek.

This year xmas doesnt feel like xmas to me. Usually I am quite happy in dec, now its 10 days into dec but I gradually feel more despair. I need to do happier things to cheer myself up.