Its almost amazing how I manage to screw up my body clock the first day I go on leave. Feaking 2.33am and I am as awake as an owl.

I was perching and puking for 12 hours before, which meant I slept all the time, thus the alertness now. Its the Godiva milkshake, I tell u, they probably used stale milk. A 8 dollars a pop, it was so not worth drinking. I tossed and turned about in bed before trying to do something more useful, like do my malay homework.

Its frustating. I am starting to doubt my initial motives for learning the langugae. I wanted to be able to read all the malay signs and understand when the malay speaks. Not that I have any malay friends anyway. It just pisses me off that the Malaysian chinese can speak 3 languages and us, only 2. At the rate I am going, I will hardly be able to converse in Malay. I do my homework by checking the dictionary for almost every single word. It is not that I do not commit to memory the words, I do, I really do but the vocab is just so vast. Not to mention sentence construction. The Zhao Ju baffles me totally.

Sigh

Anyway I was thinking its about time I looked at my Dec 2005 post to see if I achieved anything this yr. So far its not bad. Thats mainly cos I made so general statements. I still feel a bit aimless about life, about if there is more to life then just contributing to a MNC where you are but one in the big picture. I guess most of 2006 was spent at work, going home, going out with Alboy and going to work.

Nevertheless, lets see

1) I want to excel at my new position. I have to. Its a brand new position and I am scared shitless but I really want to prove to everyone I can do it.
Well, I'm still working on it. I need time to prove this.

2) I have to be more absolute and procrasinate less. I have decided to pen a to-do-list.
Hahah, I had a to-do list. For like 3 months before I gave up. Thing is, I do not have much to do. I see it as a bad thing. Like I said, my now revolves around going to work, waiting for weekend and sleep.

3) To visit new cities. Toying with the idea of bringing my mum to korea, but that may conflict with my new job scope. See how. I want to go somewhere with Alboy too.
No Korea, we went hk instead. I figured it was cheaper even though we stayed at a very expensive hotel. Where did I go in 2006 - KL, Pg, BKK, Manila, LA, Vegas, Austin, HK. No new countries. New cities include LA, Vegas and Pg though. This is prob the yr I spent the most months travelling. Considering I went to the States for a month. Pg twice. Alboy was with me for 2 glorious week in Austin, LA and Vegas.

4) Meet up with my friends more.
Not too sure about this. Seems to be having lesser and lesser friends. Been going out with work colleagues a lot, which I still have not figured out if its a good or bad thing.

5) Save at least 10K. 15K would be nice although I think it will be pushing it.
Hahahaha.

6) Sleep less, wake up earlier.
Since my life revolved around going to work (notice I say going to work, not work), I wake up at 744 am for most part of the year. I still sleep through all weekends though.

7) Make my parents less pissed with me less often. This is going to be a tall order though.
Am not sure about this.

Things that happen in 2006
You know what I do not know. Last year, I could write things like I cut my hair the most times blar blar, frivulous as it may be. This yr, my mind draws a blank slate. I remembered wanting the year to go by very fast at the start of the year, that was mainly due to my unstable state cos of work issues and partly cos I was eager to get out of the training phase and go to US. Now that the year has indeed raced past me, I am at a lost.

Either that, or things just do not mean that much to me anymore.
Does baking muffins for the very first time in my life count? I took pictures, but I forgot how to post them on blogger. Too lazy to go meddle.

I browsed through my blog enteries for the year and this is what I concluded happened in 2006
- I spent the most time away from home in a foreign country.
- I actually spent a lot of time at work at the start of the year. My early postings were all " I left the office after 8", probably part of the reason why I wanted the year to whizz by.
- I seemed to be buying a lot of shoes.
- Alboy got me a lovely bday present this time. This was solely due to the fact that I finally managed to verbalised myself and told him what I wanted. I even got pass the uneasy feeling of choosing the design with him and making him pay for it. Something I would never do before.
- Probably the year I watched the least movies.
- A blog entry got featured on Digital Times. I forgot about it until I reread my entries. See, thats how significant things are to me these days.

What I want to do in 2007
I do not know yet.
- Start tennis lessons maybe?
- Do something on the side. Maybe just learning how the stock market works or some new programming language, or just something, some money making scheme.
Will post when I think of more.

Season Greetings

So, the torrential 3 day rain finally stopped. I was hoping it will still be raining when I woke up this morning. I think its kinda cool to have it rain all the time. I love the rain and I'm not even complaining that I forgot to bring my brolly out when I rushed out of the house yesterday and had to walk in the rain. I even ate ice cream while walking in the rain. I had this melon ice cream craving for weeks and I just had to eat one melon ice cream regardless of the weather.

Its very amazing how the mud is still so soft even after 12 hours of sunshine. Usually, the mud here is super hard, now my heels sink into the mud every step I take.

The pool was super cold today, I think its all rain water in the entire pool today. Its quite cool actually. Now that the sun is out, its so so so hot again. But, then again the rain doesn't cool things down much because the humidity is still so high.

Town was crazily packed yesterday even at 5pm. I went to La Senza and they had this lovely sale. I am so tempted to go back and get things in all different colours. I got some xmas presents already. I'm a bit shocked that my colleague gave me a 100 dollar Metro Voucher as xmas present and a separate birthday present. Considering I only bought a 30 dollar gift for her for xmas, now, I need to get something good for her birthday next year. Maybe I should even stop complaining about her going on and on about her wedding plans.

I need to enjoy my birthday tomorrow. Sleep in, and look ahead to the next week because I do not have to go to work. Yippee. December is always good.

A good read

After sending out the last post, I decided the solution to all that rambling is that I need a good book.
I am one issue behind my weekly reading of Times, but I so need a good book.
Any recommendations? I'm looking along the lines of books like Tipping point, Freakanomics  etc etc...

Yet another wedding.

I attended my cousin's wedding yesterday and again I have this mixed thing abt wedding dinners.

Before the wedding, my stand towards wedding was to make it as simple as possible since nobody will be remembering it.
After my cousin's wedding, I changed my take. Now, its either as posh as possible or as simple as possible.
I was amazed at how much I bitched to myself about my cousin's wedding. Considering it was held at a restaurant, it was a tad different from all the fancy hotels I've been going to. Do not misunderstand me, I am not saying that it is in anyway inferior. It was just different. The crowd was different, more rowdy and dialect speaking. It actually felt more knitted considering there are only half the usual amount of tables. The music and lightning were so ching chong, but the food was actually ok. Hotel food are such horrid.

But, the whole thing was just so strange. I think I been to too many posh weddings. None of my relatives made snide remarks which was kinda surprising. My mum was convinced that at 550 a table it was expensive. I was thinking to myself, omg, if all my uncles think this way too, I will make a huge loss when its my turn. I cannot really verbalize what I feel cos I do not really know. Its just very weird, all I know at the end of the day is that I do not ever want to hold mine in a restaurant. So high class eh. *chides myself*  Mainly because , I do not want cheesy ching chong music, 80s Mission Impossible kinda tuntuntun lightning, cheapo looking gowns and albums. Sigh.  Double Sigh again because this totally contradicts my "I don't care" stand.  

Since my take on it is so extreme - either as posh as possible or as simple as possible. I feel extremely irritated.

Anyway, my take on it is that I am still not interested in all these wedding stuff. The more I am exposed to it, the more irritated I get. Why can't society except two people eloping or having different partners at different stage of your life. Although I stayed with a guy for a long enough time, sometimes, in fact a lot of the time, I just want to be alone. I don't like a lot of things that come with a r/s but I guess its a give and take kinda thing.

Enough rambling, Its Friday, my weekend should be approaching fast. Can't wait to get to my bday and the last week of the year.

As time goes by....

Its one of those days where I wake up absolutely exhausted. I slept well during the weekend. I slept pretty decently last night but still I feel like crap. I conclude again that I am not a morning person. My shoulder no longer aches that much after that lady gave me a absolutely fantastic massage. I hope it lasts.

Recently I grown to detest certain people. Its hard to say why why what what but this is a public blog afterall. Once I put effort to password lock it then I will write more. But really, I do not understand why some people can turn out so different in the years, or why some people think that they are superior/inferior than what they really are. Someone recently had a issue at work where all the colleagues were quarrelling over the 'Best Friend' issue. I thought 'Best Friends' were beyond our time and only existed when you were in primary school. I told her that and that you will probably have different friends at different stages of your life. Unless your characters are a perfect match, two friends will probably at same point in time lag behind each other, which sucks.

Too much undercurrent at work makes me so tired too, or maybe its a combination of the cold air, pc screen and noisy colleagues.

Santa baby...

Santa baby, all I want for Christmas is
- new sony camera
- nice earrings
- new mattress
- non aching body.

Nah, actually Santa baby, all I want for Christmas is peace, quietness and a smile on my face.