2009.

Its the time of the year when I attempt to summarise 2008.
Usually, I look back to this particular blog post a year ago, I checked all three blogs that I jumped about it and it turns out horror horror, I did not write this post. I must have been really depressed this time last yr. or maybe I was just enjoying myself in bkk then.

Things that have changed.
1. A look at my old posts seem to suggest that I been travelling a lot and I did not want to get out of the country. Now, I desparately want out! I have not been travelling since I changed jobs and it sucks. I so want to get out, go to Changi, sit in a plane, be servered a nice hot towel, sleep in a hotel room. I miss that life! So much so for complaining the last time. I am such a nut. No wonder some people say I do not know a good thing when I have it. Drats.

2. I finally changed jobs. Not once but twice. Much of my earlier posts have been lamenting about my job. After 60 mths, I finally got out. The next job was somewhat lobo. Sure the money was better but I did pratically nothing and man, the reporting manager was darn darn stupid. So unlike my old boss. I couldnt take it and bolted out. Lets see what the new job will bring in 2009.

3. I achieved pretty much nothing this year. Part of it had to do with how lobo my 2nd job was. It lulled me into this place. I go to work, sit 8 hrs doing nothing, come home ridiculously early, nap in the evening and stay online all night doing nothing. I lost all drive and did not even work on my online business. It was pretty bad.

4. I started an online business. Finally. Not too sure if started is the right word to use, cos after 4 months, I did nothing much except get the website running and sold only 1 item - to a friend somemore. I did not actively do anything else, and sometimes even avoided it. Considering I had so much lobo time, I was not sure what hit me. Its now like a dissapointment I am trying to avoid. My resolution in 2009 would be to do something abt this. Too scared to make big resolutions here.

5. I finally actively traded stocks. Overall lost as usual. Think I am currently a bit intimidated now and am steering clear for a while. Another 2009 resolution is to do something about this.

6. I think I saved quite a bit of money this year. I cashed out my 30 days leave so that gave me some cash. Plus I didnt take 2 expensive holidays like in 2007. The balance with money and enjoyment is always a toss up. Whats the point of seeing ur bank digit grow when you are not really sure what to do with it. Its still not enough to buy my property.

7. I think I went to a record number of weddings. But whats news. Its like I do not even have to worry about what to wear anymore. Its like ok, here are my wedding dresses and shoes and cluches.

8. Its still pretty much the same between Alboy and me. Excepts that he may relocate to US next yr and I am still undecide if I want to follow him there. I mean, what do I do there? Yet, the thought of being trapped in a routine 9-5 cycle, as no doubt I would be, alone is depressing.

9. Not too sure if I made any new friends this year. Met some new people at my 2nd job but I do not think I will be in much close contact with them. I mean, they are just not my type. I am way too tired to play the hi bye how are you doing game without actually giving a shit about them.

10. Lost any friends? Prob no. I think I lost them all in 2007.

11. Was looking at my 2007 bday list. I reposted it here.

My bday's coming. My wishlist includes
- 10 very very nice bookmarks. Stylish but funtional without it being act cute.
- ipod wall plug charger.
- nice jewellery would be nice. i wouldnt mind the diamond on my neck being bigger, altough i love the pendant I am wearing. After wearing it for almost 10 years, it kinda looks small or maybe I am just ready for a change. Doesnt really matter if I still wear it for the next 10 year though. Contridicitng myself, dont even know what I mean. No, I think i know what i mean but too lazy to structure my thoughts.
- Border vochurs please.
- a year subsription to the economist
- imac would be nice but I rather buy that with my own money, a bday gift has to be a gift that is oh so pretty and stunning, not like a computer
- lasik perhaps?

Its quite amazing. Cos lets see, I got the ipod wall plug charder, nice jewellery, econmist and imac. Woaa..thats 4/7. A very good score by my standard. I mean, lasik was just an afterthought, I do not think I am ready for lasik yet so make that 4/6. Now who cares abt 10 bookmarks and borders vochurs. I buy so many books from borders with the discount coupons and i just reread the pages if I am unsure where I left off. So, I got everything I wanted in 2008! Woa. I didnt even realised that. I prob coveted those things for a really long time.

Time for things I want in 2009
1. I want to travel. Greece, Egypt, short weekend to bali, but who knows I might just be in US with Alboy.
2. More fulfillment in life. Maybe more meaningful but not exhausting work.
3. Make money in stocks.
4. Start Golfing lessons? Dont ask me what the fascination is. Its just lets try why this dumb sport seems to be so fun.
5. Sleep less, wake up earlier? This has always been on the list but of mt everest level of difficulty to fulfill.
6. Tennis? but there is still no one to play with.

I will stop it here and see what else I want to add later.

The one about complaining

I had a million happy things to blog about but as usual I procrastinate.
I had been thinking that this had been a fairly decent year. Surely, I was plauged with what I like to call the bad luck phase from nov into the start of the year, it weaned off and now I consider myself in a somewhat much better position.

Yeah, something irked me today. Pissed me. Many things, in fact.

One was Alboy. I do not know why but I am just extremely irritated at him. Yup he spent a lot of time preparing for his exam, I made myself sacred. I helped him with stuff. Then all he could do/say was like things like , oh you are the best blar blar blar. Sure, he might have mean it but words mean nothing to be if you dont back them with action. Ironic how I complain abt my procrastination in the first sentence. You say one thing, and once your exam is over you plunge straight back into work. Work is always urgent, the most important. Granted work is important and you probably have piled up work but pioritise and just put me on top for once. Dont say you will meet me and blow it off. Sigh. And I am not even having pms yet.

Next, I attended a fairly decent wedding recently. Open concept, not the usual 10 course dinner. It was messy, it was hard to eat but the company was good. I was all ready to rate it a 7 out of 10, until I saw the groom's msn nick and the score plunged all the way to 1. His nick was, ideal wedding, checked. I mean, wtf. What is an ideal wedding? and how is an ideal wedding important. I still sway back n forth on the whole wedding and marriage thing. On a good day, I think its good to get married. On bad days, I just see no point. With regards to my earlier para, today is obviously a bad day. First, why is there always more emphasis on the wedding instead of the marriage. If I have my way, I will just go into the room and be done with it in 5 mins. No need for months and months of elaborate preperation. Waste of time. If a celebratory is needed, I would do it on the sg flyer. Stuff the people into the cabins, one revolution and bye. The guest prob like it cos it cost way lesser than a 150 dollars angbao and its less time consuming too. They say little girls grow up fantasing about their wedding, I never did. Not even now.

Last month of the year

I have so many things I want to gush about. Like a waterfall gushing down in a fengshui painting.
Yet, I know not where to start.

I guess I can write abt the coupon boy, although it was kinda lame and I didnt really enjoy.
The white bridal dress could be another topic.
The snake incident was mildly terrifying but mostly disturbing.
Alboy's gmat sorta bites at me.
Having the place to myself, and car
My lists

My Lovely Day

I had a great day today.

Because I was on fake mc.
It rocks.
I didnt planned it out this way although I did feel a pang of guilt early in the day but I do not really care. I was going to wake up and drag myself to work. I did wake up but my mum suddenly declard that she was not going to send me to work, which means I would be late for work and that I have to board to bus with a thousand other smelly people.

The choice was easy, I called in sick. Wahahaha

I landed up waking up at 1pm. With a slight headache cos I slept so much. Had breakfast and went to see the doctor for my mc. Then, I took off to go swimming. It was wonderful. I love the 4pm sun. Its the best. Not too hot, just nice and warm. Quiet too. Its that time when the people are not yet home from work and kids do not appear yet. It was great.
Just swim and laze around on the deck chair. I really love 4pm.

Everyday should be like this.

This post feels familar. I am pretty sure I wrote about something similars some where else. Ha

I'm back

Yup, I am back here after jumping a few blog addresses.
This felt the most real.

I cried while watching gossip girl. Cried as in really streaming tears.
It was just hard not to. The way they forgive forget, relationship, family ties. Esp, since its a thanksgiving episode.

I guess I just have too much bottled up. I still don't express easily or live life to the fullest as I should.

Maybe it just happens in the moview.