Turn turn turn turn

Its a cycle. Maybe its hormonal, maybe its the weather. I just feel slightly depressed come Sunday nights. The good thing is I have gotten used to it.

Am supposed to be studying for my malay test tomorrow but I did none of those. I checked my email, was hijacked to friendster and now am too tired to absorb anything. Methinks me will just head straight to bed.

My colleagues have been adding me to friendster and they have been putting my photo up on their profile. This sucks. I want to be faceless on the net. I have sucessfully asked all my friends not to put my photo on their blogs and these idiots just keep posting picture after picture of me. Sucks. Don't you need your friend's permission to post their picture? Maybe I am self centerd of what, I never ever put my friends picture on the www.

Actually, I wil not mind it so much if it were a group picture and faces small and unclear. I hate to be identified like this, esp if I were in a V neckline dress that reveals cleavage. Maybe I will go ask them to pull the picture down. Some of them are profile pictures somemore. OMG.

Its going to be a crazy week. I do not have such a good feeling abt it. I just want friday to come and go fast. Friday, finally. One city down another 4 more to go. Just thinking of it makes me pant. In another post, I will write about what I really think about. In short, its kinda pointless. We are but the labour to make the wheels turn.

Time traveller's wife has been so far so good. Sometimes I do wish I had the ability to see into the future, abeilt without the losing of clothes part.

OK. need to go at least read some malay. Cikgu thinks I'm his top student. No Joke. But thats just because I am the most serious about it. The others skip classes all the time. Am going to terribly dissapoint him tomorrow.

A good read.

Today was one of those days that I wake up not knowing which day of the week it is. It has been a long time since I felt this way. On hindsight, I felt the same way on Sunday but since it was a Sunday, I gladly and promptly fell back to sleep.

 I bought The Time Traveller's Wife and am immensely happy with myself. Now I have a nice book to indulge in instead of catch 22. That I will slowly read, I plan to finish that too since it does have rave reviews. At least that keeps me happy for the time being.

Bought a pretty dress at 24 bucks too. Quite a steal. The problem with me is I keep buying dresses telling myself that it is for my malay colleague's wedding in March. But everytime I see a  nice dress, i keep telling myself that I will wear this dress instead of the previous. Now I have like 3 different dresses for the wedding. Thankfully they are all in the 20-30 dollars range. Don't need to be so fanciful for void deck reunification.  

Need a good book.

Now that I finished reading eldest, I feel slightly empty. I have been so used to being transported to another world everynight and now I feel a bit sad. Embarked on catch 22, but I keep falling asleep after 2 page. I need a better book.

I watched Apocalypto. It was gruesome - the wrong movie to be sucking on a popsicle. I felt like puking halfway. Usually gory doesn't have an effect on me, but eating and watching at the same time was a tad too much. Good thing the lead looked a bit like Jerry Yan. Next time I will just watch a bimbo show - something like legally blond.

Work is going to be trying this week. I think I made some bad blood in office. I have a feeling some people out there are starting to hate me. Everyday i feel like a racehorse running towards the finishing line, but with 2 huge sandbags pulling me down. I don't understand some people really. I hate to sound arrogant but I really think their procesing and thinking capabilities are much slower than mine. Certain things that to me are only a minor hicchup, they spend hours agonising over it, with no apparent progress in sight.

Going to do a mini asean tour coming feb-mar. Hopefully after that life will be smoother. I am also convinced everything I touch turns to rock. Since the start of this yr these things have broken - house heater, scv box in my room, hdb lift(had to walk up and down for 2 days), camcorder (twice), computer (2 computers, had a major time resurrecting them).

On a happier note, I have been swimming much faster. Partly cos I get so angry with above mentioned colleagues that I have so much pent up energy to expend during lunch. I feel my muscles hardening and I am darker. Its strange, I swim during lunch all the time but only start getting darker recently. Maybe its because I been going at noon instead of 1pm, not sure if an hour really makes that much difference.

p/s.Thanks moi for the comment - when you are less busy lets go shopping or do nails or something.

The mental mind

I waited for 40 minutes at the busstop only to find out that I missed the last bus. I meant, it was only 12.10am so I thought I had a chance, after all the bus came from Toa Payoh and I was at KAP. I saw the bus going the other direction. All the other buses came but mine. Eventually someone sms me and I asked him to checked the timing, the bus left TP at 1130pm. Strange, I must have just missed the bus. It was ridiculous. I had to take a cab, which I initially resisted because I only had 2 dollars with me and refused to spend more money on cabs. Cabbed I did, paid with NETs, the surcharge is only 30 cents compared to the pricely 15% with credit cards. Felt so duh, accumulated even more negative energy in me with no outlet.

All this negative eneregy has been in me. I know not the reason. Work has been trying but I usually am not affected by work since I refuse to let my life rotate around it. Have been more bored with Alboy recently, its just the routiness of things. Meet late, cannot do anything, dinner home. Screamed and short fused at him a couple of times, not my fault entirely. He has been having a trying time at work too. Sometimes I consider myself really lucky, because when I am in the mangzhang mood, he actually is not ignorant of it and is rather sensitive. Even puts in extra effort to soothe me. I am sure all the other guys out there would have went ballastic. At least I can easily think of at least 5 guys who will do it.

Been reading eragaon and I am fasinated with the idea of how strong the mental mind is. You can easily kill troops by just thinking and using the correct ancient word. I mean, how cool would it be if I can mentally maim my uselsss colleagues every morning.

I went mental shopping today, in preparation for cny. I didn't spend any money because I felt rather poor after attending all the weddings. My mental purchases were - a pink sequined top ($40), a long sleeve top ($40), two pairs of Charles and Keith shoes ($60) , 9west shoes ($108) and Time Travellers Wife at 40% discount ($12). It easily came up to $250. See, how fast money is spent. Sigh.

I think I will actually buy these items (except 9west - too pricey) , maybe later or at a time when I feel richer. Oh, whoever who wants to buy Charles and Keith shoes, please hold on and let me know. I decided I want to qualify for the discount card. I need to spend $120. Since the shoes are pretty affordable, it does make sense to qualify for the discount. The newer designs are actualy pretty decent.

I need more mirth in life.

January's first monday.

I feel as if my weekend were robbed from me.
First I had another wedding to attend. Seriously, I am soo soo soo soo sick of weddings. Esp colleague's wedding. I would be forced to go, forced to give a decent ang bao, forced to mingle and smile on a Saturday. I think I deserve my break.
Then I had to wake up early on Sunday to go to this Fengshui talk. Seriously, after 8 hours of fengshui, everything just sounds the same. Put this that in your room to prevent this that from happening. Apparently, its going to be a not bad yr for my zodiac sign although it is in indirect clash with the grand duke of jupiter..hahaha.
It didn't let up at night, the warm weather prevented me from sleeping, so I switched on the aircon and my nose acted up. Perfect eh.
My first start of a full week after a long time. I need to plan my leave. Apparently, I would need to take at least 2 days to make sure my leave doesn't get swallowed up.
Now that I am back at work, its back to listening to the nuances of inefficient colleagues, I want to be immerse in my world of riders, elves, drawves, dragons!