So I have been on leave this whole week and what have I done? Nothing really.
I have fallen into this slumber where i sleep at 4am and wake up at 4pm. It amazes me how fast I switch timezones. But it feels awful really, like so unproductive. Although I do not think being at work fuelling a coporataion's growth is productive, it does give me a false sense of self-worth.
I'm growing fat too, think i put on another kg or so. Usually when I don't eat the whole day, my stomach becomes sucked in, now there's actually blubber. Whatever, I will swim it away when the new year starts.
I stayed over at Alboy's twice this week, mainly watching dvds and vcds while he sleeps. I can't sleep before 4, so I just amuse myself by rummaging through his collection of cds and watching them on his 42" tv while he lies like dead weight beside me. Best part - he sleeps so soundly he has no idea I finished watching 3 movies. Sideways was uber boring.
I have this huge urge to go MoS. More to see the place and say I been there than to cheong. Contrary to popular believe, I was never a cheongester. I have no idea why people think I drink and party a lot. I don't, in fact, I almost never.
Tomorrow I am finally going to town.
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Monday, December 26, 2005
Reflection
What happened this yr
1) I went to Taipei, Manila, Hanoi, SFO , Austin. Not bad really, I believed this is the most travelled yr ever in my life. To new places somemore. Would have squeezed in more if Alboy was free-er.
2) I had to deal with training and re-training my colleagues after they left after a short stint. However, at the end of the year, I think I landed up with the best team I had since I led it.
3) I lost motivation at work but found it back at the end of the year. I will proceed on to a new role next year. I also found out how nice some of my colleagues can be. Oh, I also found out who the backstabbers and bitches in the company are.
4) I had my first facial and massage and sauna and BW and threading session this year. It was great. I have since fallen into a bottomless pit.
5) I joined the gym and swam almost everyday since April.
6) I cut my hair the most number of times this yr. I decided it was a waste of money and I havn't cut it for 4 months and counting since. I think I bought the most number of shoes this yr too. Havn't bought a pair in like 4 months since.
7) I found out how dear my parents, esp my Dad, are to me. I need to work on expressing my feelings through actions more.
8) I belived I got the angriest with Alboy this yr. Prob over the stupid wedding. But all in all, I belived I had the greatest yr with him as well. Words cannot really express it all but I think he is one of the best things that every happened to me.
Things I want to do in 2006
1) I want to excel at my new position. I have to. Its a brand new position and I am scared shitless but I really want to prove to everyone I can do it.
2) I have to be more absolute and procrasinate less. I have decided to pen a to-do-list.
3) To visit new cities. Toying with the idea of bringing my mum to korea, but that may conflict with my new job scope. See how. I want to go somewhere with Alboy too.
4) Meet up with my friends more.
5) Save at least 10K. 15K would be nice although I think it will be pushing it.
6) Sleep less, wake up earlier.
7) Make my parents less pissed with me less often. This is going to be a tall order though.
1) I went to Taipei, Manila, Hanoi, SFO , Austin. Not bad really, I believed this is the most travelled yr ever in my life. To new places somemore. Would have squeezed in more if Alboy was free-er.
2) I had to deal with training and re-training my colleagues after they left after a short stint. However, at the end of the year, I think I landed up with the best team I had since I led it.
3) I lost motivation at work but found it back at the end of the year. I will proceed on to a new role next year. I also found out how nice some of my colleagues can be. Oh, I also found out who the backstabbers and bitches in the company are.
4) I had my first facial and massage and sauna and BW and threading session this year. It was great. I have since fallen into a bottomless pit.
5) I joined the gym and swam almost everyday since April.
6) I cut my hair the most number of times this yr. I decided it was a waste of money and I havn't cut it for 4 months and counting since. I think I bought the most number of shoes this yr too. Havn't bought a pair in like 4 months since.
7) I found out how dear my parents, esp my Dad, are to me. I need to work on expressing my feelings through actions more.
8) I belived I got the angriest with Alboy this yr. Prob over the stupid wedding. But all in all, I belived I had the greatest yr with him as well. Words cannot really express it all but I think he is one of the best things that every happened to me.
Things I want to do in 2006
1) I want to excel at my new position. I have to. Its a brand new position and I am scared shitless but I really want to prove to everyone I can do it.
2) I have to be more absolute and procrasinate less. I have decided to pen a to-do-list.
3) To visit new cities. Toying with the idea of bringing my mum to korea, but that may conflict with my new job scope. See how. I want to go somewhere with Alboy too.
4) Meet up with my friends more.
5) Save at least 10K. 15K would be nice although I think it will be pushing it.
6) Sleep less, wake up earlier.
7) Make my parents less pissed with me less often. This is going to be a tall order though.
Friday, December 23, 2005
There we go again.
You know how i blog things then forget what I blogged about.
I was rereading my previous post today and I wrote:
I guessed an external harddisk and computer will make me happy at this pt in time, but this is not what I want as a bday gift
Guess what Alboy got me for a bday gift? Ya, Bingo.
He is the worst present giver ever. Failed thrice.
I was rereading my previous post today and I wrote:
I guessed an external harddisk and computer will make me happy at this pt in time, but this is not what I want as a bday gift
Guess what Alboy got me for a bday gift? Ya, Bingo.
He is the worst present giver ever. Failed thrice.
Saturday, December 17, 2005
Zones
I spoke to my boss recently and he says I fall into zones.
Zones where I am very happy and everything is pink and rosy for me and zones when I am depressed and everything stinks.
I never known myself to be like this. I asked Alboy and he says I switch between these zones often within the week. But I dont trust Alboy and I do not think my boss meant this on a weekly basis. I still have no idea. Do I fall into such zones?
Then, I reread my blog posts, I was so happy my last post but I cried or was the verge of crying for two days after that. Turns out that my boss offered me a position to stay with the company, and I am going mad just thinking what to do. I still do not know what to do. I get swayed right left very fast.
I know the decision is ultimately mine to make and consequences mine to bear, but I guess I just need that reasurrance from people that matter to me that I am making the 'right' choice, to encourage and be by me. I feel like I am being too troublesome but I can't help it.
The decision making just gets so much harder when you grow up. I guess thats what life is all about. I am glad that I be going on leave soon enough. Then, I do not have to go to work too much.
My birthday's coming, perhaps its time to switch to the so-called happy zone.
I wonder if people know exactly what they want on their bday. I don't. I never did somehow.
I guessed an external harddisk and computer will make me happy at this pt in time, but this is not what I want as a bday gift. Its just something that will make me happy because it pains me to spend so much money on it now. I am on a 'save money' campaign now. Save for what, I also dun know. Such are the ironies of life.
I thought abt it long and hard. What would be great bday presents?
- jewellery. Nice ones, I have to admit that I am somewhat taken by their beauty recently. I like staring at them. But I do not go out to buy them, or want anyone to buy for me, because they are so expensive and I think the money can be better spent
- bags. Nices ones, for all ocassions. Only girls will understand this. I never thought I be like this because most of my bags are ugly or I usually hold everything in my hands. Nice bags do not have to be expensive, I saw a few nice ones at some push-carts recently but I was never one to buy on impulse, so I left them on the pushcarts.
- facial and spas packages. To pamper thyself would be nice.
- Great company, great friends, great parties. What more can I ask for?
Zones where I am very happy and everything is pink and rosy for me and zones when I am depressed and everything stinks.
I never known myself to be like this. I asked Alboy and he says I switch between these zones often within the week. But I dont trust Alboy and I do not think my boss meant this on a weekly basis. I still have no idea. Do I fall into such zones?
Then, I reread my blog posts, I was so happy my last post but I cried or was the verge of crying for two days after that. Turns out that my boss offered me a position to stay with the company, and I am going mad just thinking what to do. I still do not know what to do. I get swayed right left very fast.
I know the decision is ultimately mine to make and consequences mine to bear, but I guess I just need that reasurrance from people that matter to me that I am making the 'right' choice, to encourage and be by me. I feel like I am being too troublesome but I can't help it.
The decision making just gets so much harder when you grow up. I guess thats what life is all about. I am glad that I be going on leave soon enough. Then, I do not have to go to work too much.
My birthday's coming, perhaps its time to switch to the so-called happy zone.
I wonder if people know exactly what they want on their bday. I don't. I never did somehow.
I guessed an external harddisk and computer will make me happy at this pt in time, but this is not what I want as a bday gift. Its just something that will make me happy because it pains me to spend so much money on it now. I am on a 'save money' campaign now. Save for what, I also dun know. Such are the ironies of life.
I thought abt it long and hard. What would be great bday presents?
- jewellery. Nice ones, I have to admit that I am somewhat taken by their beauty recently. I like staring at them. But I do not go out to buy them, or want anyone to buy for me, because they are so expensive and I think the money can be better spent
- bags. Nices ones, for all ocassions. Only girls will understand this. I never thought I be like this because most of my bags are ugly or I usually hold everything in my hands. Nice bags do not have to be expensive, I saw a few nice ones at some push-carts recently but I was never one to buy on impulse, so I left them on the pushcarts.
- facial and spas packages. To pamper thyself would be nice.
- Great company, great friends, great parties. What more can I ask for?
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Aiooya Ee, Aiooah Oh , Aiooah Ah Ah Ah
I been quite happy recently!
I went through a period of difficult decision making and now that I made my decision, things should and look up from here.
I am so glad because it is approaching my bday. Much as I dissed the fanfare about birthdays, I feel happy when my birthday is coming.
Partly because Xmas is nearing too, and that joy is in the air, everyone seems to be in a happier mood looking forward to hols and clearing leave. Plus its good that there are so many sales, it makes you feel like you can shop, although most of the time things are still too expensive or out of what I am willing to pay.
Then, I just cracked my DVD player. I am so proud of myself. I found the crack in Portuguese, got it translated. The translation didn't really make sense because the sentence structured was all screwed up. It was like "With device off, it presses the OPEN in the remote control to open the tray". I was like..how to open tray when device off. But apparently, you can open tray with device off.
Now I can watch Sister hood of the travelling pants tonight! and oh, Amazing race season finale is on tonight too!
So happy!
I also recently discovered the joy of going into the sauna. The place where I swim daily has a sauna, I have never used it in all the 8 mths I been swimming there mainly because the sauna is in the toilet and to on it, you have to get the key from the counter. The counter of course is positioned at the door and I really do not fancy walking dripping wet across the whole gym to ask for the key in my swimsuit. Thus, I never bothered with the sauna, plus the only memory I have of going into a sauna was when I was very very very young and it was not pleasant.
About 2 weeks ago, a colleague joined the gym and she is so into sauna. I went in with her once because she in her nice and dry gym clothes had no problem walking across the gym asking for the key, unlike the fish out of water me. It was really nice. I loved the way perspiration formed and it really felt very very good. I feel very peaceful and surreal after that. I went in myself a few times after that. Most of the time I sneaked in after someone else used it, so the room would still be heated. It wasn't as hot sometimes if I go in long after the previous person. Sometimes, my colleagues switches it on it for me and it is piping hot. Really really nice.
I need to go read about the proper sauna procedure. I cannot figure whether to bath before or after, dry my hair or not. Now what i do is, I bath after my swim, bath as in shop and shampoo. Wrap myself in a towel, blow my hair dry, then go into the sauna. Come out and rinse off the perspiration. I need to do some goggling about this. Goggle knows all.
Oh ya, my mum bought Ba Gua. You know how much I love eating it. Not as much as I used to a few years ago, but I still do. I used to have them all year round.
What would really make me senseless happy now is a nice peach. I been having peach cravings for ages. But according to my mum, the peachy season is out now. She used to buy those really really nice peaches, like those Sun Wu Kong will eat. I love those peaches.
Peach peach peach..i want peach.
I went through a period of difficult decision making and now that I made my decision, things should and look up from here.
I am so glad because it is approaching my bday. Much as I dissed the fanfare about birthdays, I feel happy when my birthday is coming.
Partly because Xmas is nearing too, and that joy is in the air, everyone seems to be in a happier mood looking forward to hols and clearing leave. Plus its good that there are so many sales, it makes you feel like you can shop, although most of the time things are still too expensive or out of what I am willing to pay.
Then, I just cracked my DVD player. I am so proud of myself. I found the crack in Portuguese, got it translated. The translation didn't really make sense because the sentence structured was all screwed up. It was like "With device off, it presses the OPEN in the remote control to open the tray". I was like..how to open tray when device off. But apparently, you can open tray with device off.
Now I can watch Sister hood of the travelling pants tonight! and oh, Amazing race season finale is on tonight too!
So happy!
I also recently discovered the joy of going into the sauna. The place where I swim daily has a sauna, I have never used it in all the 8 mths I been swimming there mainly because the sauna is in the toilet and to on it, you have to get the key from the counter. The counter of course is positioned at the door and I really do not fancy walking dripping wet across the whole gym to ask for the key in my swimsuit. Thus, I never bothered with the sauna, plus the only memory I have of going into a sauna was when I was very very very young and it was not pleasant.
About 2 weeks ago, a colleague joined the gym and she is so into sauna. I went in with her once because she in her nice and dry gym clothes had no problem walking across the gym asking for the key, unlike the fish out of water me. It was really nice. I loved the way perspiration formed and it really felt very very good. I feel very peaceful and surreal after that. I went in myself a few times after that. Most of the time I sneaked in after someone else used it, so the room would still be heated. It wasn't as hot sometimes if I go in long after the previous person. Sometimes, my colleagues switches it on it for me and it is piping hot. Really really nice.
I need to go read about the proper sauna procedure. I cannot figure whether to bath before or after, dry my hair or not. Now what i do is, I bath after my swim, bath as in shop and shampoo. Wrap myself in a towel, blow my hair dry, then go into the sauna. Come out and rinse off the perspiration. I need to do some goggling about this. Goggle knows all.
Oh ya, my mum bought Ba Gua. You know how much I love eating it. Not as much as I used to a few years ago, but I still do. I used to have them all year round.
What would really make me senseless happy now is a nice peach. I been having peach cravings for ages. But according to my mum, the peachy season is out now. She used to buy those really really nice peaches, like those Sun Wu Kong will eat. I love those peaches.
Peach peach peach..i want peach.
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Go away - "Joey does not share Food "
Never Never Never ask me to lend you my books!
I hate lending people my books because none of you knows how to take care of them. They either come back with the spine bent or with dog ears, that is if you ever plan on returning them.
BTW which idiot has my Prisoner of Azkaban? I am pretty sure I bought the book but it never got back to me.
I really hate people asking me to lend them my books. Why are you all so Cheapo!! Buy your own books. How much can you save? A simple paper back is less than $20, more popular books are $50 max. If you are that cheap, go to the library or find someone who is willing to lend u. Or, download it off the internet to read. I know people who have read the whole HP series on the net. At least they do not go around badgering people to loan them books.
I always smile and say next time, or wait till my siblings finish reading to avoid lending out my books. My siblings do not read, it is my ruse to not lend you books. My closer friends will know that I refuse them outright telling them to go buy their own books instead. I believed I scared of Samuel when I did that to him.
To make you envious/jealous, I have a fantastic library of books! That is because I spend a lot of money on it. I do not buy much stuff, but I splurge on books.
I have
- ALL the Enid Blyton books, yes I mean ALL. Those were from my younger days.
- EVERYTHING Roald Dahl has written. Again from my younger days
- COMPLETE series of HP except Azkaban, US Covers somemore.
- COMPLETE series of Hitchhiker Guide
- COMPLETE series of Artermis Fowl
- COMPLETE series of Naria
- COMPLETE series of Lemony Snickers
- COMPLETE series of Dan Brown
- COMPLETE series of Jack Welch
- COMPLETE series of LOTR, including the Bilbo Baggins one.
- COMPLETE set of Stephen Hawking
- ALMOST all of Jostein Gardner
These books are not exactly the best of my collection but they have been widely commercialised that you do not need a bookworm to recognise these titles
I list these books because everyone seems to want to borrow one of these. My own siblings included. They are damn lucky cos my parents will refuse me to disallow them to touch my books. I have more. Mitch Albom, Candace Bushnell, the very commercialise books etc.
You name it I probably have it. Or am going to buy it once I get to the next book fair.
So damn irritated. So remember, NEVER NEVER ask me to loan you my books and SPREAD THE WORD ARD.
I hate lending people my books because none of you knows how to take care of them. They either come back with the spine bent or with dog ears, that is if you ever plan on returning them.
BTW which idiot has my Prisoner of Azkaban? I am pretty sure I bought the book but it never got back to me.
I really hate people asking me to lend them my books. Why are you all so Cheapo!! Buy your own books. How much can you save? A simple paper back is less than $20, more popular books are $50 max. If you are that cheap, go to the library or find someone who is willing to lend u. Or, download it off the internet to read. I know people who have read the whole HP series on the net. At least they do not go around badgering people to loan them books.
I always smile and say next time, or wait till my siblings finish reading to avoid lending out my books. My siblings do not read, it is my ruse to not lend you books. My closer friends will know that I refuse them outright telling them to go buy their own books instead. I believed I scared of Samuel when I did that to him.
To make you envious/jealous, I have a fantastic library of books! That is because I spend a lot of money on it. I do not buy much stuff, but I splurge on books.
I have
- ALL the Enid Blyton books, yes I mean ALL. Those were from my younger days.
- EVERYTHING Roald Dahl has written. Again from my younger days
- COMPLETE series of HP except Azkaban, US Covers somemore.
- COMPLETE series of Hitchhiker Guide
- COMPLETE series of Artermis Fowl
- COMPLETE series of Naria
- COMPLETE series of Lemony Snickers
- COMPLETE series of Dan Brown
- COMPLETE series of Jack Welch
- COMPLETE series of LOTR, including the Bilbo Baggins one.
- COMPLETE set of Stephen Hawking
- ALMOST all of Jostein Gardner
These books are not exactly the best of my collection but they have been widely commercialised that you do not need a bookworm to recognise these titles
I list these books because everyone seems to want to borrow one of these. My own siblings included. They are damn lucky cos my parents will refuse me to disallow them to touch my books. I have more. Mitch Albom, Candace Bushnell, the very commercialise books etc.
You name it I probably have it. Or am going to buy it once I get to the next book fair.
So damn irritated. So remember, NEVER NEVER ask me to loan you my books and SPREAD THE WORD ARD.
Sunday, December 04, 2005
BBQ
I had a great bbq last night and I was in bed by 1am. Such is the growing needs of a young adult. I seem to need so much sleep these days.
The bbq was fun except that I had a few misgivings abt certain things.
Ms L tried to shove me $20 bucks before she left. It was like duh, really unnecessary because we go back a long way and besides you cannot really price friendship. Anyhow, $20 was too much, you didn't even drink a single drop of the beer.
What pissed me off was that some of my friends were really cheapo. Those that read this blog, or those that I know read this - I am not referring to you. You guys are close enough for me to not matter about such things. I also do not refer to those I told they do not have to bring anything.
I shall not elaborate. It is hard to verbalised such things without coming off sounding like a loser miser.
Alboy says it this way, he feels that good food makes a difference to a bbq and he is more than willing to share good food along with his culinary skills. He however too agreed some of the people present were cheapo.
Anyway, Alboy thinks that he is super eligible now and keeps using the fact against me. He bbq-ed all the food.. the last time i bbqed with him, there was hunky roy to take over the bbq. Roy surprisingly BBQed very well too. Everything was nicely done. It was the best bbq then, super good food, all nicely cooked.
The bbq was fun except that I had a few misgivings abt certain things.
Ms L tried to shove me $20 bucks before she left. It was like duh, really unnecessary because we go back a long way and besides you cannot really price friendship. Anyhow, $20 was too much, you didn't even drink a single drop of the beer.
What pissed me off was that some of my friends were really cheapo. Those that read this blog, or those that I know read this - I am not referring to you. You guys are close enough for me to not matter about such things. I also do not refer to those I told they do not have to bring anything.
I shall not elaborate. It is hard to verbalised such things without coming off sounding like a loser miser.
Alboy says it this way, he feels that good food makes a difference to a bbq and he is more than willing to share good food along with his culinary skills. He however too agreed some of the people present were cheapo.
Anyway, Alboy thinks that he is super eligible now and keeps using the fact against me. He bbq-ed all the food.. the last time i bbqed with him, there was hunky roy to take over the bbq. Roy surprisingly BBQed very well too. Everything was nicely done. It was the best bbq then, super good food, all nicely cooked.
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