The mental mind

I waited for 40 minutes at the busstop only to find out that I missed the last bus. I meant, it was only 12.10am so I thought I had a chance, after all the bus came from Toa Payoh and I was at KAP. I saw the bus going the other direction. All the other buses came but mine. Eventually someone sms me and I asked him to checked the timing, the bus left TP at 1130pm. Strange, I must have just missed the bus. It was ridiculous. I had to take a cab, which I initially resisted because I only had 2 dollars with me and refused to spend more money on cabs. Cabbed I did, paid with NETs, the surcharge is only 30 cents compared to the pricely 15% with credit cards. Felt so duh, accumulated even more negative energy in me with no outlet.

All this negative eneregy has been in me. I know not the reason. Work has been trying but I usually am not affected by work since I refuse to let my life rotate around it. Have been more bored with Alboy recently, its just the routiness of things. Meet late, cannot do anything, dinner home. Screamed and short fused at him a couple of times, not my fault entirely. He has been having a trying time at work too. Sometimes I consider myself really lucky, because when I am in the mangzhang mood, he actually is not ignorant of it and is rather sensitive. Even puts in extra effort to soothe me. I am sure all the other guys out there would have went ballastic. At least I can easily think of at least 5 guys who will do it.

Been reading eragaon and I am fasinated with the idea of how strong the mental mind is. You can easily kill troops by just thinking and using the correct ancient word. I mean, how cool would it be if I can mentally maim my uselsss colleagues every morning.

I went mental shopping today, in preparation for cny. I didn't spend any money because I felt rather poor after attending all the weddings. My mental purchases were - a pink sequined top ($40), a long sleeve top ($40), two pairs of Charles and Keith shoes ($60) , 9west shoes ($108) and Time Travellers Wife at 40% discount ($12). It easily came up to $250. See, how fast money is spent. Sigh.

I think I will actually buy these items (except 9west - too pricey) , maybe later or at a time when I feel richer. Oh, whoever who wants to buy Charles and Keith shoes, please hold on and let me know. I decided I want to qualify for the discount card. I need to spend $120. Since the shoes are pretty affordable, it does make sense to qualify for the discount. The newer designs are actualy pretty decent.

I need more mirth in life.