A weird dream

I am tired and am trying to squeeze in as much read time before I conk out, but I have have to blog this before my brain loses its ability to remember it.

I had a weird dream, a distrubing one.

Remember my last dream, I think I blogged about it but am too lazy to find it to link it. It was about the ring rolling around. ** put the link it as an afterthought*

This time, it was even more scary. I suspect it was a result of me visitng my colleague's 18th month old in the middle of the day and pretending I had the most enjoyable afternoon playing or trying to play with the tot. I don't even find it adorable.

Back to the dream.

I was having dinner with Alboy and his parents and halfway through the maincourse, he fished out this diamone ring case(dunno what you call it) and opened it. Of course there was a diamond inside, i even remembered it size. 0.61C. But before he opened the case, I screamed nooooooo. When the ring was revealed, I was already reduced to a state of vehemently shaking my head in distress. Then, Alboy's mum went , 'Put on the ring and let me see' and I was like 'Sorry Auntie I can't' and I think she went into a fit. I can't remember the exact details because I was feeling so sad about rejecting Alboy.

Then somehow I was a but upset on the ring size. I was thinking that Alboy spent all his money on a overpriced ring because it was from Lee Hwa (I think). Anyway, I was just so depressed. My heart totally sunk. Then Alboy was like so hurt, then it got to a stage where he was really really really so so so hurt , I think it was like a few days later, you know there is hardly any sense of time when you dream that I said yes.

Then I was like hmmm ok and somewhat facing up to it. But at that point in time, I was hit by some werid feeling again. I looked at Alboy face and somehow it just didnt feel right. It was like I would not have anything in common with him or anytihng to talk ot him about after the wedding..and it was as if my life already belonged to someone else.

Then I turned to look at Alboy and suddenly, I was looking at my ex face instead of him. Then everytihng just seemed to right out of a sudden because I know why. I looked at him firmly in the face and said I can't do this, my life belongs to someone else(Alboy) and said sorry and walked away rather light hearted. Like I had it all figured out and life will be full of happiness from this point onwards.

Then, I woke up.

I am still thinking what this means. Sigh.